Thank you both for your input.
I was doing as well as can be untill recently. It could be b/c I was on ultram and that had a liitle ssri in it. I'm just guessing.
Yes, CP alone is terrible, but to have a husband and wife not well at the same time is worse.
My husband's views on it, should have just been left out of this post. It doesn't matter, but, yes, he is against them all and tried many. I know I have to take care of me and with all I've been through in life, I've never been through 4 years like this. And I never felt myself a depressed person, but the opposite. I've been an outgoing, fun person, but with the way I am feeling it is making me nervous.
I will give it more thought and certainly appreciate you taking the time to read my post and write back.
Post Edited (PAlady) : 6/4/2009 3:31:32 PM (GMT-6)
Thanks everyone for your replies. I do appreciate you reading my post and taking the time to write.
I'll answer one by one. White Beard. It started that he wanted me to try cymbalta for the pain and the depression that comes with all that I am dealing with. My insurance didn't cover cymbalta, so he wrote it for wellbrutin, why? I don't know.
PAlady, you are right, I have been struggling with this for some time. I remember telling you that because I was on ultram, I couldn't take an anti depressant and I know we had a misunderstanding, and to this day feel bad if I came across wrong, I am sorry. And no, I don't have bi-polar.
I did go to the Web MD site and read the reviews. Some were excellent, some not. I know White Beard, too late, I read them before I read your post, but knowing me, I would have looked anyway.
I dealt with so many things, like the death of my husband and never felt like this. I never even thought about pills. I know this isn't me. I know I shouldn't let my husband's views on it get in the way, but to be honest, I think they are. I also know, this is the lowest I ever felt and I would tell someone to try it. I am afraid of the side effects and coming off of it ...but I don't like where I am at and can't focus or feel good about anything. Some people said, that ultram was a bad drug and once off of that you'd feel great. Actually, I feel worse. I know I have the signs of depression, and it has taken 4 years of one thing on top of another to get here.
Thanks everyone. You all make sense, and like a child, still scared.
Oh, and PAlady, I agree, I saw that Effexor was similiar to Wellbutrin also.
Thanks again for you concern. I really do mean it, that you and the others are such a compassionate group and you are always in my prayers. I know that many of you are suffering but go out of your way to read posts and give input and that means a lot to me.
Well, I took the first step! I told my husband I think I need to give it a shot and he was sompassionate also, telling me, of course, he's here for me and whatever it takes to make me better. That alone and you and the others responses has helped me, more than you know.
I also read that effexor is the closest to cymbalta. I have a follow up with him, but I am open. You have a good memory and know that I have thought about this for some time and like I said before, I am sorry, if I didn't come off right with you. I had suspected that, but rather than rehash, I would love to start over.
Someone was just telling me that they had no trouble coming off of it. It's my over anaytical mind at work again. I have always gotten off a drug the slow, tapered way. I would never go cold turkey like I hear so many do. I'd rather take my time, and spare myself the least amount of grief.
So, I am finally giving it a chance. Yesterday, it finally seemed clear that I had and was heading that way---down. And I know it's not my fault--(that's another discussion).
I want to thank you and everyone here for being a great group and I will try to stay in touch more.
Bless you all.
Thanks PAlady. I am one to give up very easily and I know what you mean about the number of bottles. Like I would feel victorious when I would cut something out. I would judge myself on how much I was taking and actually feel bad that I was taking anything. My husband would remind me that I was more of a patient. I had spent so long devoted to health and I was equating the pills taken to a bad vision of myself--all wrong, I know. I know an anti depressant won't make it all go away but to feel better about things, sounds good to me and I will do my best not to give up or think of side effects. Thanks for your encouragement and for resetting the button. I really hated that and am glad it's of the past.
Blessings to you.
I don't know if you have seen my post about my son who was recently DX'd Bipolar 2...but, he was put on Geodon first, then they added Welbutrin...He took 1 pill!!! just one, and went on a downward spiral of suicidal thoughts that almost put him in the hospital.... Of course he a teenager....
Now, I took it several years ago and it didn't do much for me...Maybe it will help you. I hope so.
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I sure hope it helps me. Sorry about your son. They should have known better. I read it is not to be gven to people who are bi-polar also. I try to read these things before I take anything. but like everyone here is saying, give it a try and try another if it doesn't agree with you or help you. I would be thrilled if it helped a little. CP is depressing, there's no doubt about it. I fought for years not to try it. I was taking ultram and said I couldn't but was also very scared.
Did you get the impression I was bi-polar? It sounds that way, maybe I am misinterpreting it...but in case you thought I was, I am not.
Sorry it didn't help you. Maybe try another one.
I hope your son feels better. This is why I don't trust doctors. I am sure there are some good ones out there--I just haven't met any. And the people that do are very fortunate.
I wish the best for you and your son.
Skeye, No need to apologize. When you are in pain and your eyes are bothering you, I can totally understand. I thank you for be comapassionate enough to put your own problems aside for me, that's a big thing to me.
My fears aren't that huge. I had already told my doctor before that I wasn't keen on taking them.
But when you are in pain and there is a possibility that something might help, you go for it and I did.
My doctor is very precautious, sometimes I wish not so much. I wish we had other choices for pain meds. I wish all I needed was alleve. I think most of us can relate to feeling who thought we would be in this position in life?
I didn't. I blame myself a bit for overdoing my exercises.
I am still fairly young, and alleve doesn't do it. I'm doing my best, as we all are and can't thank you all enough for your generosity.
My prayers are with you all.