Hey everyone. It has been awhile since I have checked in with all my CP friends and I thought I would give ya'll an update to what has been going on with me. Bear with me my friends, I am sooooo tired and my breakthrough Medications are just now kickin in.
Okay so, I have seen my psychologist twice now and I really think it is beginning to help out tremendously! He is very personable and listens to everything I say. Refreshing to say the least, I have alot on my mind and he is very good at telling me the truth.
This drug addiction situation.....(the fact that my doctor is soo worried about past drug problems catching up with me) is really worrysome and I really do not believe that it is a problem. I haven't done anything, as far as early refills, running out of medications or anything like that to prompt this. It's only because three psychologists (with the aide of their 80% correct testing) that I'm even in this situation.
Now, I am tagged to be IA'd every 2 months which is putting more stress on me as I keep thinking that I am now red flagged as a possible problem patient. My illegal drug use is so far in the past that I don't even think about it anymore. Its a part of my past that I would never ever go back to and I just don't see where it influences my taking my medications. But.....the trials go on.
Now on the topic of the SCS......Yes it is still in my future plans to go ahead with this procedure. But....again I have to jump through tons of hoops, which don't get me wrong I do not mind doing but with WC not paying for the psych part of the bills, its taxing our money flow and I am afraid that I will not be able to continue this treatment that seems to be helping me lower my pain for much longer. As it is I only see my psychologist every two weeks and still that posses a problem as I have to drive myself to Wichita and then am crying and hurting so badly by the time I leave the city trying to drive home.
Okay....so on a brighter note! My pain is decreasing bit by bit....because of my new distraction tool!!!! Hubby, as wonderful as he is, bought me a Wii and a cool game! This has allowed me to get a bit more challanging excersise and that has seemed to lower my pain a bit more. I am now down to a 7-8 instead of raging at 10-9! My psychologist says that it is a good thing and that I am to continue to do what I can to lower my pain.
We have set a few new goals and I really think that I can do them without comprimising my pain. Anyway....that is what is going on with me. Time for some sleep.
I think of you all often and I hope that your pain is lowered.
P.S. PA??? Have you been watching Moonlight??? What do you think?
What doesn't kill us only makes us fight back harder! :P