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LLPLUV
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   Posted 8/2/2009 5:02 PM (GMT -7)   
sad    Ok I'm finally falling apart.
 
Today should of been a good day.  I slept in which was a bad mistake the pain was unbearable.  I took my meds, poured my first cup of coffee and started to think about what to do for my 18 wedding aniversary.
 
Swallowed my pill, put my coffee aside to get cold and put the planning on the back burner.  For my father was freaking out.  Some of you know about my 70 yr old father.  Some of you don't.  Maybe you should just pass this thread up to save getting a headache..  I would if I could.  rolleyes
 
This was at 10:30 am.  Its now 7 pm.  I had no coffee today and only one pain pill until 1 hour hour ago.  I haven't ate or did anything for my anniversary.  Instead I got to call my sister, stayed on the phone for over and hour with the VA and 6 hours in the VA ER.
 
My father is now committed.  Not just for a few days like last week but for a period of time.  He threatened to kill himself so many times today my head was spinning.  He didnt mean it he just wanted the attention.  I had the fear the doctors wouldnt catch onto his sociopathic behavior.  But to my suprise they caught onto to it almost at the first.
 
Its only August and I have missed my 39th birthday, Valentines Day, Mothers Day and now my 18th anniversay for my father has a way of acting up on special days.  Hes like a 5 year old at his sister birthday party getting jealous someone else is getting attention.
 
I'm trying not to fall apart but I feel I may need too for a few minutes.  My sister says she will go home eat dinner then fall apart.  Or I should just say a good cry.  This is not the end of our ordeal its just the beginning of a long road that seems to have been going for years.  Like the yellow brick road with no end.
 
I have been given 20 yrs tops with my condition with my kidneys but I'm afraid I will spend most the time dealing with his mental illness.  But of course I will deal with the hand that has been dealt but I want to be the 5 yr old fitting cuz my limited days is having to deal with this!  That is just being upset talking.
 
I just needed to vent for a minute, just a tab bit overwhelmed.
 
Laurie 


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Chronic Kidney Stones, PKD (Polycystic Kidney Disease), Chronic Kidney Failure, Severe Hypertension, Urological RSD

Also CHF (Congestive Heart Failure) and Sleep Apnea

Hopefully NO MORE........ I think I have it all


skeye
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   Posted 8/2/2009 5:23 PM (GMT -7)   
((((((((((Laurie)))))))))))))). Would it be possible to put your father in a nursing home, or similar environment where someone could look after him 24/7. I know that this wouldn't be ideal, but you can't do everything & you shouldn't have to baby-sit him every minute, plus be a mother, a wife, a chronic pain sufferer, and whatever else. Maybe a social worker at the hospital could give you some ideas or suggestions as to how to deal with him?

hugs,
Skeye

And Happy Anniversary!

Centurion45
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   Posted 8/2/2009 5:49 PM (GMT -7)   
Hello- I can't possibly tell you that I know how you must feel. I do however have empathy for you. The stress level must be through the roof.

I am glad that for this time, your father managed to create his issues in front of someone who could do something about him.

Please vent whenever needed, I think it is worse to keep this kind of stuff corked up.

david
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merrygirl
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   Posted 8/2/2009 6:00 PM (GMT -7)   
I am so sorry, you dont need this kind of stress thats for sure! I say cry and get it out, so it doent stay stuck.

hugs for you,

melissa
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LLPLUV
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   Posted 8/2/2009 6:08 PM (GMT -7)   
Thank for the responses.. And welcome David to our family here on HealingWell forums.

Skeye--- A nursing home is not the right place for him he would just be a disruption to the patients. He acually needs to be inpatient in a mental living facility. Where they can keep track of him and his behaviors. It is very hard to deal with him when I deal with so much pain. When I was sitting in the ER the thought ran though my mind that if I didn't get home I might need the doctors help. While we were their we talked to the social worker during his stay we will be meeting to see what will be done upon release.

David--- You are right the stress level is through the roof.. I can't even tell you how I feel right now. Yes venting to my friends on this forum is the only place I can. I'm being so honest I cant vent anywhere else. Not at home or even behind closed doors. I'm suppose to be the strong one in the family. I still am but the last 6 months is really trying to bring me down. I'm trying to refuse such happenings.

My stomach hurts so much and it isnt even part of my CP. I'm just so happy my husband has supported me through all this. He told me when I got home that I did the right thing. He stated we can celebrate our anniversary next weekend. Not the same to me but he was being so understanding.

Well time to go to bed 4:30 am comes early for work

Laurie
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Chronic Kidney Stones, PKD (Polycystic Kidney Disease), Chronic Kidney Failure, Severe Hypertension, Urological RSD

Also CHF (Congestive Heart Failure) and Sleep Apnea

Hopefully NO MORE........ I think I have it all


White Beard
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   Posted 8/2/2009 7:29 PM (GMT -7)   
Laurie

I remember you posting about your father before, I am so sorry that he has wrecked another one of your special days. Happy Anniversary just the same. Can't the VA just keep him? I know that they have the faciilties for men with his type of problems. I wish I could say something that could or would make your situation better, but there is no words that can do that!. Just know that we are here for you, a shoulder for you to cry on, and a sympathetic ear for you to vent to, and support to up lift you anyway we can. You have so much that you have to endure, you just don't deserve to have that too!

I do wish you on the best Laurie, I hope you have a better day tomorrow!

White Beard
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Mrs. Dani
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   Posted 8/2/2009 7:47 PM (GMT -7)   

 

   Dear Laurie,

     Good evening *huggs* I hope you are feeling a little bit better. I am very sorry he did this to you AGAIN. Though I know your heart must be torn to peices... I for one am glad he is away from you.. but also, safe. where he cannot harm himself (or threaten for emotional gain)or you.  I am sick and down right tired of people screaming at the top of their lungs and going to extremes without any care for who they harm in the process. The mental, physical, emotional and social toll on you must be tremendous. *huggs*

    If there is anything I can do to help, just say the word! We will be over in a heart beat to raid your fridge  smilewinkgrin  

* huggs *

    dani

 


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fatherjohn
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   Posted 8/2/2009 8:16 PM (GMT -7)   
Laurie, I am sorry that your day went this way but I am also pleased to hear that something was done to help protect your father and you. I also know you had a big day yesterday so you are running on several days of activities that add to your pain and the wonderful frustration that goes with it. I can imagine that you have many thoughts running through your mind and if it is like mine, how do you turn it off? I also know we joked about your father during the chat this last week and it was not done in a way to make fun of him or minimize what you deal with. It was another way for you to deal with the difficulty that goes beyond what we think we will ever have to deal with. I hope you are able to get some rest before heading to work. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.  

Tirzah
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   Posted 8/2/2009 8:33 PM (GMT -7)   
Laurie,
I am so sorry to hear of all the stress you are going through. Maybe WB's on to something. Can the VA keep him? or can they move him to a Group Home for the Mentally Ill? I had a friend who's mom was always doing those kinds of things. Eventually she was dx'ed with Borderline Personality Disorder. My friend had to block her mom's number for 6 months at a time just to give herself a break. Then her sister would block their mom's number & my friend would take her turn. It would have been better if they never had to deal with her mom's crazy rants, but at least that gave each of them a chance to enjoy some special days with their own family & friends. Just a thought ... I can't imagine actually being in your situation. I just hope & pray that somehow you are able to get a break from all the craziness.

peace,
Frances
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bluejet2
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   Posted 8/2/2009 8:37 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Laurie:

I am so sorry for all that you are dealing with. I grew up with a mentally ill mother. When I was a child, she was diagnosed as paranoid schizophrenic - back then you were either schizo. or bipolar. When I was a teenager, they changed the diagnosis more appropriately to Panic Nervous Disorder.

She has a lot of the same symptoms as someone with schizophrenia, but she doesn't hear voices. She is paranoid - she thinks everyone is out to get her, selfish - has to be the center of attention all of the time, and has spoiled every important event in my life (Wedding, the day each one of my children were born, etc.). I could go on and on, but you've had enough for one day (or a lifetime) already.

I just wanted you to know that I do know what you are going through, and it is awful and unfair, and it really, really sucks! My mother "disowned" me 13 years ago, and I haven't spoken to her since - the worst part about it was that I had to accept loosing my father as well, as her sick behavior is normal to him, so as horrible as she can be, it is ALWAYS everyone else's fault and she has done nothing wrong. Also, my youngest brother (he is 28) still lives on the same piece of property as my parents, and we have to sneak to keep in touch by e-mail because they have repeatedly threatened to kick him to the curb if they find out that he has any contact with me. They live in the state of FL, and I am in NY, so we can't just "meet for lunch", or something. If he were to plan a trip to NY, they would assume that it is to visit me, so I have not seen him in 13 years either.

Hang in there and vent anytime!

Lorie

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   Posted 8/2/2009 8:47 PM (GMT -7)   
Laurie,

I don't know all the history w/ the stuff with your father; but, all the same, I just wanted to tell you that I'm so sorry for all that you are dealing with. It sounds incredibly stressful..which, combined with chronic pain/health issues -- your plate is definitely full.

I wish I had some "magic words" for ya....since I don't, I just want you to know that we are here for you.

Tina
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Meds: MS Contin (480mg daily); MSIR (15mg/6x day); Soma (3x day); Atenolol; Midodrine; Phenergan; Effexor and on the list goes...

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   Posted 8/2/2009 9:03 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi sweet Laurie!

This is such a hard decision for any family to make but it seems that even though you have siblings that his care has fallen to you. No, that is not fair but it's what happened. Your father is ill and a danger to himself. No one wants to have a parent committed but it's even worse to have him on the streets where he is in constant danger...to himself or others.

Laurie, you did the right thing! You said this is 'for a time' but I would guess that permanent commitment would likely be the best long-term solution. You deserve to have a life and especially since you are dealing with your own health issues. Please do not feel any guilt over this. It's so easy for us to destroy our own lives with guilt in a situation like this but that has no purpose in our lives. Your father is ill and needs this type of care. You and your own family need to resume a life focused on each other and not live in fear of what dad might do next.

Please know that we are thinking of you and pray that you have some peace.
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   Posted 8/2/2009 9:20 PM (GMT -7)   
i am late to the topic, but I wanted to add my support for you and what you are dealing with. You know, as well as everyone else, you can always come here to share what is bothering you whether it be physical or mental. We all understand the physical aspects just as much as we do the emotions. I too wish you a happy anniversary and am glad your spouse is understanding. I hope that you will keep us informed as to how this goes...

PAlady
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   Posted 8/2/2009 10:51 PM (GMT -7)   
Laurie,
I am late in reading this thread, so I'm sorry for not responding earlier. You know, I think Chutz combined WB's and Frances' responses and they have some excellent points. Not easy to do, but you do need to look out for your own health and your family, and your know your father isn't going to get better. While he's an inpatient is the time to take a strong stance, hopefully with your sister and your husband supporting you, and at least set a boundary so you do not have this in your life, at least not on any kind of frequent basis. If they can commit him now to a mental health facility for the long term, he won't like it, but it would be best all the way around. But best doesn't mean the easiest thing for you.

I hope you can get a little respit, and that you and your husband can pick a special day and make that your 18th anniversary (don't tell anyone else!). Maybe you could even go away for a weekend - or at least a long day trip. And leave your cell phones off!

I wish you a Happy Anniversary for you and your husband to share in your hearts together today, but another Happy Anniversary for the day you'll have together sometime very soon!

((((((((Laurie)))))))))

PaLady

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   Posted 8/3/2009 2:04 AM (GMT -7)   
Laurie, my heart goes out to you and your family. I have to agree with WhiteBeard and Chutz, as difficult as it is, it now may be time to make other living arrangements for your Dad, sad indeed but necessary. You know anytime you need to let it out we are here for you. Hugs, Susie
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Stella Marie
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   Posted 8/3/2009 2:38 AM (GMT -7)   
I am so sorry that you are having to deal with all of this on top of trying to keep your self healthy and as stress free as possible.  I am not sure if you have children to deal with too - but if you do - welcome to the nightmare of being part of what they now call the sandwich generation.  This is where you get the chance to be responsible for yourself, but also the generation beneath you (you kids), as well as the generation above you (your parents).  Mental health issues are the worse thing to have to deal with.  Just when you think you have a schedule that works for your parent(s), they do something that totally pulls the rug out on everyone. 
 
I know my father had some mental health problems and then self medicated with his best friend "Jack Daniels" on top of that!  His issues caused such a strain on everyone.  I know it must have been had for you to make the placement, but it sounds like you had no other choice.  In the long run his will be safe and get the care he needs and maybe you can take the monkey off your back long enough to get some time to heal and regroup yourself.  You have to remember that you are only one person and can only handle so much.  The days of being super woman are over - handle what you can and get the help you need for the others in you life.  Being pulled in hundred different directions will only compromise your health. It sounds like your Dad is safe and other professionals can help care for his needs.   If you don't take care of yourself first, no one else will.
 
Good luck and let us know how everything goes.

Stella Marie

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LLPLUV
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   Posted 8/3/2009 3:01 AM (GMT -7)   
Wow instead of tears of despair I have tears of happiness that everyone came out to support me.
 
When I get home from work I will respond to everyone.
 
Lastnight while I was laying in the bed listening to my husband snore.  Just minutes earlier he was so worried about my health, mentally and physically all he did was cuddle with me.  During the time I was laying there I came to one conclusion.
 
The old saying "God will never give you more than you can handle"  I am very faith based but now I think this, "the mind can handle more than you think".  The mind none of us really know its boundries.  In my life I have been handed alot to deal with.  But I always seem to come out of it for the better.
 
Today will be a good day even with my dad in the hospital and dealing with a crazy boss who is mean as a snake.  I will post in more detail when I get back this evening
 
Once again thank you everyone I really needed all your words.  You will never know how much they did for me this morning....
 
Laurie
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39 yr young female with,
Chronic Kidney Stones, PKD (Polycystic Kidney Disease), Chronic Kidney Failure, Severe Hypertension, Urological RSD

Also CHF (Congestive Heart Failure) and Sleep Apnea

Hopefully NO MORE........ I think I have it all


PAlady
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   Posted 8/3/2009 9:11 AM (GMT -7)   
Laurie,
You're not working for Pete's old boss, are you????? If so, you know what you need to do! LOL

Seriously, I hope you can get a break somewhere in here for you and your hubby. A REAL break.

((((((((Laurie))))))))))

PaLady

anice
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   Posted 8/3/2009 10:38 AM (GMT -7)   
Laurie,  I am sorry I missed this yesterday. I want you to know that I am so sorry you are having to go through this. It is devastating to you, I am sure. I think you did the right thing for your father(though I am sure he doesn't feel that way), for you, and for your family. You did the only thing you could do. I admire you for the courage and strength it took for you to do this. He needs help. With the emotional issues he has, him not following or respecting the rules you and you husband have in the household, him running away and putting himself in danger... Laurie, you really were backed into a corner. You had to do this for him and for everyone else involved. It was in everyones' best interest. Often times things are easier said than done. But please don't allow yourself to feel quilty for this. You did a truly loving and wonderful thing for your father. Do not allow him to tell you otherwise. You hold your head up. Laurie, I care about you. All of us on this forum do. And I think we all have a special relationship with one another-a feeling of family as many of us have said before. And when one of our family members hurt, we also hurt for you. We will support you all the way through this.I thank you for sharing this with us. I know it is hard to do at times. I will be thinking of you and remembering you in my prayers.
 
I am sorry about your anniversary. I think it is awesome for you and your husband to be married for 18 years. He sounds like a great husband and a wonderful support system to you. So you look forward to celebrating this weekend. You deserve it.
 
Post as often as you need to. We are all here for you. And allow yourself to heal from this. I wish you peace within yourself.
Anice

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   Posted 8/3/2009 11:07 AM (GMT -7)   

Human Resources Helpful Hints

Take the prospective employees you are trying to place and put them in a room with only a table and two chairs. Leave them alone for two hours, without any instruction. At the end of that time, go back and see what they are doing.

If they have taken the table apart, put them in Engineering.

If they are counting the butts in the ashtray, assign them to Finance.

If they are waving their arms and talking out loud, send them to Consulting.

If they are talking to the chairs, Personnel is a good spot for them. If they are wearing green sunglasses and need a haircut, Computer Information Systems is their niche.

If the room has a sweaty odor, perhaps they're destined for the Help Desk.

If they mention what a good price we got for the table and chairs, put them into Purchasing.

If they mention that hardwood furniture DOES NOT come from rainforests, Public Relations would suit them well.

If they are sleeping, they are Management material.

If they are writing up the experience, send them to the Technical Documents team.

If they don't even look up when you enter the room, assign them to Security.

If they try to tell you it's not as bad as it looks, send them to Marketing.


 

devil  


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And sorry I could not travel both  
And be one traveler, long I stood


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   Posted 8/3/2009 11:24 AM (GMT -7)   

How to Maintain a Healthy Level of Insanity in the Workplace

1. Page yourself over the intercom. Don't disguise your voice.

2. Send e-mail to the rest of the company telling them exactly what you're doing. For example: "If anyone needs me, I'll be in the bathroom."

3. Every time someone asks you to do something, anything, ask them if they want fries with that.

4. Put your trash can on your desk. Label it "IN."

5. Make up nicknames for all your coworkers and refer to them only by these names. "That's a good point, Spike." "No, I'm sorry, but I'm going to have to disagree with you there, Sparky."

6. High-light your shoes. Tell people you haven't lost them as much since you did this.

7. While sitting at your desk, soak your fingers in Palmolive liquid. Call everyone Madge.

8. Hang mosquito netting around your cubicle. When you emerge to get coffee or a printout or whatever, slap yourself randomly the whole way.

9. Put a chair facing a printer. Sit there all day and tell people you're waiting for your document.

10. Send e-mail back and forth to yourself engaging yourself in an intellectual debate. Forward the mail to a co-worker and ask her to settle the disagreement.

11. Encourage your colleagues to join you in a little synchronized chair-dancing.

12. Feign an unnatural and hysterical fear of staplers.

13. Send e-mail messages saying there's free pizza or donuts or cake in the lunchroom. When people drift back to work complaining that they found none, lean back, pat your stomach and say, "Oh, you've got to be faster than that."

14. Put decaf in the coffeemaker for three weeks. Once everyone has withdrawn from caffeine addiction, switch to espresso.

15. Find out where your boss shops and buy exactly the same outfits. Wear them one day after you boss does. (This is especially effective if your boss is of a different gender than you.)

devil  

Hope you are doing okay today!!!!

*huggs*

dani


TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,  
And sorry I could not travel both  
And be one traveler, long I stood


Pete trips again!
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   Posted 8/3/2009 4:53 PM (GMT -7)   
Lairie,
I'm so sorry I have not been here for you durring this trying time> NO excuse! You are an a amazing LADY and I know that the others here as well as my self are honored to be your friend! Of all the bad things in your life I must say, you sertainly have a gem of a husband! He sticks by you through thick and thin and that is such a special thing in this day and age when you see so many of your married friends arguing and splitting up over such trivial bs!!!! I'm happy for you that you have a good one! So many good ladies don't!
Hang in there and pain>pain> GO AWAY!!! and don't come back another day!!!
Big Hug coming atcha!!
Pete
56 years old, Surgury, Radical Prostatectomy 8/20/03, PSA 6.6, Gleason 3 + 3 = 6, Adenocarcinoma extent (moderate) Stage & Margin:T2NOMX, No Metastases, Organ Confined, bone scan: Neg. 3 1/2 years of depression after surgery prior to Hypogonadizm DX, Testosterone Theropy> new 2/6/09> 400mg injections once a month. 56 and so glad to still be here to see my two sons grow up to be fine young men. They are both serving in the US Navy, Joseph is on the aircraft carrier USS John Stennis back in Bremerton, Wa. after 8 mo. deployment! and Pete Jr. is on The Asault Ship USS Bataan "The Jaws of the Fleet" somewhere in the Persian Gulf w/ 2,000 Marines aboard. I am one very proud (what they call me)> Big Pops! 


LLPLUV
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   Posted 8/3/2009 6:01 PM (GMT -7)   
WOW!!!!  I have cried and laughed over this thread.  I even handed the laptop over to my hubby so he could read all your responses.  At the same time telling him he needs to get on this forum to talk about his issues.
 
I went from crying to laughing so hard I couldn't stand it. My husband was looking at me from the kitchen wondering what in the world was going on.
 
I dont think I could answer everyone of you unless I wanted to stay up till midnight typing when I do have to go back to work tomorrow again.  Which by the way I was told we are going back to 12 hour shifts again.  Big Ouch for me.
 
Today I talked with my father and he seems to think everything is just hunky dorey.  None of this means anything to him but I keep telling myself its just the mental illness talking.  I considered taking some vacation time to regroup myself. 
 
Yes PALady I have a boss just like Pete had.  Telling him I want to take vacation would be like signing my write up paperwork and I would be in HR tomorrow morning.  But I didn't want to take the vacation time and keep myself from taking time with the family over the holidays.  If I used my time due to the stress of my father he would interfer with another part of my life.
 
DANI you are insane but I loved the funnies.  Thats what made me laugh so hard I cried.  I gotta keep that one in files for future sending to someone else needing to laugh.
 
FatherJohn yes in chat I do use alot of humor to get through life.  I fully believe humor is the best medician and the readers digest was so right on the nose about that!
 
My mind is set.  My father will be committed even if it takes the rest of my breathing days to get him into a home for people with mental illness's.  He needs to be safe and also others need to be safe from his mental and emotional abuse.  He has no choice for he has given me not one to think differently.  I might fall apart in the darkness of my bedroom late at night but I will wake in the morning with a smile on my face....
 
I want to thank all of you who I think as my family for taking the time to post on this thread.  It means more than any of you could ever imagine.  Even thought some of you don't know what its like to care for a parent with mental illness's your thoughts and concerns are true to me!!!!!  I would never want any of you to feel this pain.  And to the ones who were raised with similiar issues as I did I'm so sorry you had to deal with this also.  I would NEVER want another human being to have to feel the emotional pain of seeing your parent or parents in such a helpless state.
 
I could go on and on but I really gotta go to bed.....LOL
 
Laurie
Kidney Diseases and Disorders
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39 yr young female with,
Chronic Kidney Stones, PKD (Polycystic Kidney Disease), Chronic Kidney Failure, Severe Hypertension, Urological RSD

Also CHF (Congestive Heart Failure) and Sleep Apnea

Hopefully NO MORE........ I think I have it all


golitho
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   Posted 8/3/2009 9:45 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Laurie I haven't been around for a few days but just wanted to throw in my best wishes too. I remember the last time your Dad was like this and the stress and strain it caused you, so I am so glad you're going to try and do something this time. How hard is it to have someone committed? I know in Aus, it's very hard, there seem to be not enough beds for mental health. Good luck through this whole business and BIG HUGS, golitho
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