Welcome to the family Gypsy....I think yu haven't given yourself enough credit..You have endured pain that most people would fold under...and you did it with the minimum amount of pain meds...Now that the pain is getting worse you are needing more..That's all it is. Don't read too much into it. I know a lot of people that can't tolerate even a little bit of pain without massive pain killers...so give yourself some credit.
You need to talk to your Dr. and let him/her know what you're going through...He will more then likely give you something for more long term pain relief.. I take Methadone for long term and Oxycodone 30 mg. for the more short term pain issues... It sounds like you need something tailored for you...
Keep us posted on your issues, we are always here.
I have been a spectator for so long..Now it's time to participate.......
Post Lamenectomy Syndrome, Spinal Stenosis, DDD....
1999 Hemi Lamenectomy/2005 Spinal Fusion(L4-S1)
Methadone 120 mg. a day/ 30 mg. Oxycodone as needed(up to 4 x a day)
High Blood Pressure: Lisinopril HCTZ 10 mg. daily
Type 2 Diabetes: (March 16, 2009)
Metformin HCL ER 1000 mg. at night..Glipizide 10mg. 2X in the morning
Lantus 35 units at bedtime with Solostar Pen