The "what ifs" will get you every time! So Please don't let the "what ifs" do that to you! Hopefully things will work out for you! I am sayig a prayer that they will. You know even when I was in the military they started me off at work doing only a couple of hours a day and I had to gradually work up to working full time. It took many months before I was working a full 8 hours a day! I understand that money is tight and you need to work, but what about your husband? Is he working yet? If he can't find work in his chosen field, can't he find something else to do in some other job? I am not sure I understand?? I am just wondering why it is only up to you to work?
Anyway anice try and keep your chin up, and don't let the "what ifs" get you down! We all care about you and we are all rooting for you!