This is no time to be a chicken! I cant! Yet, ...deep within my heart I want more than anything to runaway and never ever look back. I still dream that the damage will stop. The bones will stop crumbling. The want is almost too strong & over whelming. To want something so much! When will it ever slow down? ...stop... !!I have got to Tuffin up!! Gosh, I feel ever so weak & spent.
Only 2 days to go. Gosh it is gonna be a very long week. I wish I wasnt so scared! Last night, I was trying to read and I thought well shoot? What is the worst that could happen?
~~>"You are still progressing." <~~~~
But, it isnt anything I havnt heard before for nearly 2yrs now. It isnt anything new. I just want so much for the crumbling to stop I am so glad I met all of you. It is easier to break down and cry, get it all out with you guys. You all just know, some how.
WHAT was I thinking schedualing so many "day procedure" all in the same week? There I was busy about my life, thinking *Oh this will get it done as quickly as possible. Just in time for Literacy Week* Remind to never ever schedual so much in the same week ever again. Please, just come right over to my house and kick me in the kaboose! Say, "No! Stop that! What are you NEW?"
Oh! *HUGGS!* Jag! No worries! My family and I finished group counseling and Cognitive behavioral therapy back in Feburary. *huggs*