I admit that I haven't read all of the replies to your post....bad me. But, I will say that this issue comes up about once every three months. We all have had issues about our meds. Whether it's that they're not working as well, maybe we're taking too many and running out, maybe they're too strong, not strong enough...are we addicted or just dependent...the list goes on and on and on.... First let me tell you that I have NEVER taken Oxycontin...only because the Dr. that I saw said she would NEVER put her name on a prescription that had so many issues...I wanted to but never did. I do however take Methadone 120 mg. daily and Oxycodone 30 mg. Immediate release 4 times a day. I know that Methadone works for me better then any other narcotic I have ever taken..and I have been through a lot of them. I tried to change from the Methadone to Morphine once a few months ago and it didn't work. I changed back within a week.
Methadone is its own animal with its own problems. I think it gets a bad rap. People only think of it something that heroine users take to get off the "Junk"...that's far from the truth. Why it works for some and not others is a mystery to me...it works for me.
I know that I have thought in the past that I was an addict...it totally affected the way I thought about my medical problems and how I could help myself. I just thought that I was worthless and deserved to be in pain...then I read the replies on here when I posted about the addiction vs. dependence thing...I realized that I was dependent. Then I could move forward in my treatment. Maybe I'll be on Pain Meds for the rest of my life, but that doesn't make me a bad person. Luckily, most Pain Dr.'s know about this and treat us with that knowledge...not making us feel bad when we ask for something stronger or for something that lasts longer. They know what we are dealing with. CP is Horrible...and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.
I don't know if anything I wrote helped you, I hope so. just don't be so hard on yourself...No matter what, we deserve to have pain control like anyone else...
I have been a spectator for so long..Now it's time to participate.......
Post Lamenectomy Syndrome, Spinal Stenosis, DDD....
1999 Hemi Lamenectomy/2005 Spinal Fusion(L4-S1)
Methadone 120 mg. a day/ 30 mg. Oxycodone as needed(up to 4 x a day)
High Blood Pressure: Lisinopril HCTZ 10 mg. daily
Type 2 Diabetes: (March 16, 2009)
Metformin HCL ER 1000 mg. at night..Glipizide 10mg. 2X in the morning
Lantus 35 units at bedtime with Solostar Pen
Chronic Pain Moderator
-Stress is when you wake up screaming....and realize you haven't fallen asleep yet.
-What if the Hokey Pokey really IS what it's all about.
-Is it time for your medication or mine?
-Underneath it all....I'm pretty much naked.