But I wonder why your husband and doctor keep talking without you involved?
I have to re sign papers each year for everyone from HR to Insurance carriers to hospital staff so my husband and doctors etc can all talk freely with one another. It isnt usunual they are talking. Their conversations this last time seem to revolve around "risk of infection" with it being only a few days out from oral surgery. Same conversation he had with me... Its just that when ive been in sever pain (inflammation / bone loss) it is hard to communicate effectivly. I try hard thou.
It sounds like something is going on with your bloodwork that you need to understand.
I have tried very hard to understand. They are all thyroid and calcium tests that can be measured from my blood. They seem confused that the test are showing at one end of the spectrum, then negative or/and opposite end of spectrum. I am pretty sure only one that comes back the same number is my calicum absorption rate which is 0.002. I have to re test the same "calcium & thyroid tests" at the end of this month. So far, literally every 3mos. I really hope they can figure it out soon. I have spent far far too long in limbo.
My doctor and husband are/was very concerned over the risk of infection. I trust his judgement, but mentally all I can think is "Gosh.. more pain... 2 more weeks." Selfish I shouldnt think of things in such a way, but occasionally a negative thought slipps in.
I know I mimic RA. The arthritis panels are done every 6mos. . At times I wonder when they will stop testing that one. It isnt cheap. Quite a few vials for that specific set. It always comes back negative. I do know the similarities are there. In fact one medacine to help my hipps.. it is my understanding that is most commonly for Arthritis called Nabumetone. The hospital staff refer to is as "relofen". It gave me my mobility back.
Why is your doctor grumpy?
Exactly. I dont need the folks around me getting frustraited "for me". I need action. I need help. It isnt just him. My family, my friends, even my online friends. I know every is frustraited, noone more so than I! But gosh! Do I really have to pull everyone aside and say "Stop! Your only making it worse for me!!"
I was re schedualed, it seems, for a number of reasons. Recent surgical, fever seems to be top of the list. "Rick of infection" came up in all our conversations. I just feel bad that I A. Wasted everyones time B. Seem to be such a sorce of frustraition to those who know me. C. have limited medical knowladge.
My bottom teeth get placed in 3 weeks. But really, the "temporary teeth" are so beautiful, noone knows any better. They dont look temp. I appreciate the work that went in to my temp for sure. I never was able to "see" the perm. bottom set. I was able to view the perm. top set before my procedure and they are georgous. If I had just taken them off the "settting" device thou, I would have seen that there wasnt any pegg holes!! But!! It is nice, to be able to smile when I want and have someone smile back. Also, my husband has said if I really really want the pegs on top he would do that. It is something to think on.
I'm getting confused
Don't feel alone. Dear lord I am too.
It is time for some changes. Nothing is going to get better, physically. This is how I will feel unless or until I see otherwise. It is okay, and I am okay that my body, for whatever reason, doesnt seem to want to work right. That, for whatever reason, the doctors cant seem to give me a diagnosis. But it is time to make my time here as comfortable and enjoyable as possible. Not just for me, but for all those around me. It is time to prepare myself and my family for the next stage of life. Whatever that turns out to be.
I have mapped out the expectations of myself for the next 6mos. I really hope to be able to realize the first step of these changes. I would like to "clean house" and be ready for when hubby find new home. More like a life clean. Would like to provide time each day maybe an hour or two for jewlery. I would like to work towards being able to sell it. I wont intrude on any times that are for my family. I really think if I make a few changes each day, I can find a small space of time for my personal & family goals. My husband said that when I was ready he would gladly help me realize these dreams. Maybe out door flea market at first, see where it goes. Who knows? Small goals to most. Big goals for me. I have got to keep moving forward.
I appreciate all of yoru support so much. I am sorry I havnt be able to sit down for very long. Sting & exhaustion seems creep up every time I begin a task.
|TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
|And sorry I could not travel both
|And be one traveler, long I stood|