OMG!!! I feel that way most days...I mean, what do I have to look forward to? Being able to walk up the steps without having to lean on the railing? Not much...But, I want something to look forward to... I really do.... I don't want this to be IT!!!
I don't think any of us wants the pain to be our lives...So, how do we make it better?
I have been a spectator for so long..Now it's time to participate.......
Post Lamenectomy Syndrome, Spinal Stenosis, DDD....
1999 Hemi Lamenectomy/2005 Spinal Fusion(L4-S1)
Methadone 120 mg. a day/ 30 mg. Oxycodone as needed(up to 4 x a day)
High Blood Pressure: Lisinopril HCTZ 10 mg. daily
Type 2 Diabetes: (March 16, 2009)
Metformin HCL ER 1000 mg. at night..Glipizide 10mg. 2X in the morning
Lantus 35 units at bedtime with Solostar Pen
You wrote: ("Is this it??? Is this my life?? Am I ever going to get better?? ") How many times have I asked myself these same exact questions? I empathize with you Scarred! I sense the desperation in these questions! I know how I have felt, The hope that there has got to be more to life than just this pain! The wish that my life was not this way, the endless waiting for the day, that I will get better and I will be my old self again! But yet knowing deep down that, that will never happen! But longing to have the pain ease up for at least, just a little while and give me a reprieve, that I so desperately want!
I wish I had some magic words that could give you the answers that I know that you want to these questions. But alas, I am afraid there is none! I guess if there was, then none of us would be here at this forum! But know when you are hurting and feel down and ask these questions, that you are not alone, we are all here with you! I do hope you get to feeling better soon, and your pain eases up at least a little!