OT Tuff morning for me & my little 4 legged pal.

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straydog
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   Posted 9/8/2009 4:23 PM (GMT -7)   
Well some may remember my older golden took sick a couple of months ago with a cough and his chest xray came back bad. Well, he perked up and started eating very well and did good. The cough came back Sunday evening and it sounded like a rattle. Last night he either coughed or spit up a pink tinge stuff (blood).
 
I did the right and humane thing for him this morning. I did not want him to ever suffer, that is something he did not deserve. He has been by my side for 9 years and has been the very best little guy I could ever want.
 
Its just rough right now. My heart is so heavy.
Straydog/Susie
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crohns disease dx 2002 & small bowel resection, still looking for remission whatever that is, chronic pain 22 yrs, added ulcerative colitis 6-05 to the mix, high blood pressure 28 yrs, aortic heart valve insuffiency, depression, osteoarthritis, osteoporosis lumbar spine, scoliosis lumbar spine, peripheral neuropathy hands & feet, COPD & on oxygen therapy, lupus & decreased circulation in both legs. Several other health issues just not enough room to list it all. Too many surgeries to list and too many medications to list. Currently on 16 different daily medications. Intrathecal pain pump implanted June 05.


Stella Marie
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   Posted 9/8/2009 5:30 PM (GMT -7)   
Suzie,
I have had to do that several times in my life. Pets can be more comforting than humans, at times. They love you unconditionally and never seem to complain. Losing a pet is like losing a small piece of your heart. You did the right thing in not allowing him or her to suffer. Always remember that "all dogs go to heaven." I know how hard it is not to have them their. My thoughts are with you at this sad time.

Stella Marie

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Rare neurodegenerative /movement disorder called “Multiple System Atrophy”.  Mobility issues,, neuropathic pain,  spasticity, central apnea, collagenous colitis, joint and body pain, swallowing and respitory  involvement,  Implants: intrathecal pump  & neurostimulator.  Extra features: O2 & wheelchair

 Not all of us can be Cinderella, but some of us can be Fairy Godmothers.......

 


Chartreux
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   Posted 9/8/2009 5:59 PM (GMT -7)   
Oh my Susie, I'm so very very sorry about the loss of your pet!
our pets touch our hearts and lives in ways that makes it so hard when we lose them, but
you did do the right thing and never ever question yourself on that, I just wish I could give
you a big soft hug in person, right now!
Prayers and lots of soft hugz....
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Susie)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
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skeye
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   Posted 9/8/2009 6:42 PM (GMT -7)   
Susie,

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I know that you loved Jake very much! The two of you were meant to be together. You gave him a second chance & a wonderful, long life. He's still watching over you for sure! I know that it was a very hard decision, but it was the right one. There is nothing worse than waiting too long. You didn't let him suffer. This final act was one of pure love & compassion. You & your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. I know all too well how hard this is & the feeling of that gaping hole left in your heart. ((((((((((((Susie)))))))))))))).

many hugs,
Skeye

Post Edited (skeye) : 9/8/2009 7:45:19 PM (GMT-6)


Mrs. Dani
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   Posted 9/8/2009 6:53 PM (GMT -7)   
 
 
  Oh no! Miss Suzie!
 
      *huggs* Im so very sorry! cry   I wish there was something I could do or say. I am so so sorry for your loss.  shakehead    You gave each other so much love and happiness!  I am sure you made it as comfortable and loving as possible. In our hearts and prayers
 
*warm huggs*
      dani
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And sorry I could not travel both  
And be one traveler, long I stood


fatherjohn
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   Posted 9/8/2009 6:56 PM (GMT -7)   
Susie, So sorry to hear about your companion. As has been mentioned the decision had to be difficult and there is no doubt that you are missing him. Words can be comforting but they don't take away the pain of the loss. You are in my prayers.

Draka
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   Posted 9/8/2009 7:05 PM (GMT -7)   
Oh Straydog...... honestly your post brought tears to my eyes.... I am so very sorry for your loss.... know we are all hear for you....
Lisa


PAlady
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   Posted 9/8/2009 7:09 PM (GMT -7)   
Susie,
I also know what it's like to make that decision. And it is truly made out of pure love, because we don't want to lose our beloved companions. They are so much a part of our lives.

Like someone said, it's like losing a piece of our hearts.

You have my sincere sympathies. This is a significant loss for you.

((((((((((((((Susie))))))))))))))

PaLady

edt
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   Posted 9/8/2009 8:09 PM (GMT -7)   

Susie,

My deepest Sympathy to you and your family!  I am so so sorry!

Much love!

XXOO
Patti


bsjaguar
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   Posted 9/9/2009 3:28 AM (GMT -7)   
Susie, I'm so sorry to hear of you loss. Be strong and cry as long as you need.
---Jag---
 
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MusicalLvr
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   Posted 9/9/2009 12:34 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi, I also have goldens. I am also in vet med, and I want to say that the one big symptom you mentioned here....you did the right thing. It's so hard to stabilize dogs on pain killlers, we try, but since they cannot speak it is so hard. My oldest golden (not my first dog, though) is turning ten at Christmas. I am terrified of losing him, because he has been my best, most loyal friend for a decade. I wanted to say that I am so very sorry for your loss, losing a beloved pet is a very hard thing to go through. You did the right thing. Never doubt that. What your vet would have had to do to keep him hanging on, even for six months (and I say this only knowing this one post of info,so bear with me) but really the details of dealing with lungs and heart are more painful than I'd want to put my dogs through. It's hard because we never want to lose them. I am so sorry. Hang in there. Your little guy is, I believe, in doggy heaven with my own passed away ones, chasing tennis balls and eating mountains or human food they couldn't have in life. I'm sorry for your loss.

straydog
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   Posted 9/11/2009 6:38 AM (GMT -7)   
Thanks everyone for the kind words and hugs. I have cried a river of tears and they just seem to keep coming. The days and nights are really hard, my shadow is not behind me or beside me. I don't hear that bark that says I want upstairs now please!! He was the only one allowed upstairs. Being the one with more senority it was his get away place from the two younger dogs. He was always in the computer room with me at night. I do know I made the right decision, I would never let one suffer for my own reasons no matter how hard it is. He was just my special little boy. I did request he be buried by our other golden.
Straydog/Susie
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crohns disease dx 2002 & small bowel resection, still looking for remission whatever that is, chronic pain 22 yrs, added ulcerative colitis 6-05 to the mix, high blood pressure 28 yrs, aortic heart valve insuffiency, depression, osteoarthritis, osteoporosis lumbar spine, scoliosis lumbar spine, peripheral neuropathy hands & feet, COPD & on oxygen therapy, lupus & decreased circulation in both legs. Several other health issues just not enough room to list it all. Too many surgeries to list and too many medications to list. Currently on 16 different daily medications. Intrathecal pain pump implanted June 05.


PAlady
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   Posted 9/11/2009 11:41 AM (GMT -7)   
Awe, Susie.....

I know how hard this is. I really do. Losing our beloved companions...there really are no words. We just have to grieve, and know, as you do, that we made the right choice for our loved pet and friend.

I remember making that choice for my 20 year old cat, and it was excruciating. But I knew, like you did, it was time. Not MY time, but his.

(((((((((((((((Susie))))))))))))))))

I just want you to know I and many others here understand. This is not easy.

Hugs,

PaLady

PAlady
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   Posted 9/11/2009 3:05 PM (GMT -7)   
Susie,
I went back and found the sympathy cards I received from my vets office when I had to euthanize my cat. I got three cards, one of which was signed by each staff member, and I've saved them to this day. They will always be among the most meaningful things I have!

One of the vets wrote this poem, which touched me deeply, and I thought it might help you.

"We who choose to surround ourselves with lives even more temporary than our own live within a fragile circle, easily and often breached. Yet, we still would live no other way." Irving Townsend

How true, despite the pain, most of us would live no other way.

Hugs,

PaLady

couchtater
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   Posted 9/11/2009 5:40 PM (GMT -7)   
I know your pain. cry
 
Several years ago an old stray wandered into my yard and my heart. Baby stayed with me for about two years. It killed me to have to call it time due to old age and illness. It took time for me to even be able to say the word "baby" without tears coming into my eyes. shakehead

One thing that helped with my healing was when I was shopping one day. I spotted a tiny Christmas ornament. That ornament looked just like Baby! But it had angel wings and a little halo! shocked
Naturally, I grabbed it and felt a sweet sadness. It now sits in a place of honor in my curio cabinet.
Whenever I feel a twinge of loss over him I look at the little ornament and think of him running around in doggy heaven with his wings and halo.
 
It's amazing how something so small can leave such a big hole in our heart.
 
(((((((((((((((((((((((gentle hugs))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
 
Joy
 

straydog
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   Posted 9/13/2009 1:57 PM (GMT -7)   
Thanks so much for the poem PaLady. He is my 3rd golden to put down and the other two were horrible as well, But Jake was different, he was "my dog." My husband could not do one single thing with this guy, nothing lol. Jake would not go out and pee for him. The other two would nearly knock him over getting out the door, not Jake he stood in the living room giving the look which meant "I am not going out that door". Jake was a total momma's boy in & out. I went to visit my sister in OKC one time and had to come home early because he was not eating. He was a mess. My other two boys played it right, they had both of us making over them constantly, but Jake was just different. He was such a good little guy. He went from being a tough little street boy to a baby. I could open one of my gates or front door and there was no way he would venture out lol. The other two here which is yet another golden and the Brittany Spaniel have been looking for their buddy. Being the oldest he did rule the roost with the other two and they just followed him around and he showed them the ropes so to speak. When the female golden would stick her head in the pool to get a leaf or a bug she would let Jake lick her face to dry it off. He was in charge of making sure they were dried off. They patiently let him just lick lol. Its funny how the other two knew he was much older than them. If they got too rowdy he barked at them to stop and he griped them out many a time lol. Like I said he is a special little boy.
Straydog/Susie
Moderator Chronic Pain
 
crohns disease dx 2002 & small bowel resection, still looking for remission whatever that is, chronic pain 22 yrs, added ulcerative colitis 6-05 to the mix, high blood pressure 28 yrs, aortic heart valve insuffiency, depression, osteoarthritis, osteoporosis lumbar spine, scoliosis lumbar spine, peripheral neuropathy hands & feet, COPD & on oxygen therapy, lupus & decreased circulation in both legs. Several other health issues just not enough room to list it all. Too many surgeries to list and too many medications to list. Currently on 16 different daily medications. Intrathecal pain pump implanted June 05.


PAlady
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   Posted 9/13/2009 2:06 PM (GMT -7)   
Awe, Susie.

Losing special pets like Jake leaves a bit of a hole in our heart. But I'm glad you have all those great and precious memories!

((((((((((Susie))))))))))))

PaLady

AngMichelle
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   Posted 9/13/2009 10:44 PM (GMT -7)   
I'm so sorry. I understand how you feel. I think about the dog I lost everyday. He was my only friend, and it felt like losing a child. Thing was we were one week away from getting the fence installed, and one time we let him out to go to his business, he got hit.
I was in the hospital and my parents both walked in late at night and new he was gone as soon as I saw there faces.
I'm glad your dog didn't have to suffer. I can tell you took great care for him/her and showed great love.
And I'm convinced they're are dogs in heaven!
Ang
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BigLucy
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   Posted 9/15/2009 5:59 PM (GMT -7)   
Just read your post and wanted to offer my condolences. I have three dogs myself and don't know how I would deal with all my B.S. without them. Dogs are special creatures, for sure. Just had surgery and the first week, well two actually, slept the whole time and my dogs were right there with me. I know the wound is still tender to the touch--remember how many years of love Jake gave you.
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