Once again you have opened our hearts and minds with your words!
An emotional healer I went to several years back said some wise words to me, I didn't get what he meant then but I do now.....do not let pain become your identity, he told me don't take possession of the pain with words like MY pain, my cancer, my chemo, my any ailment.....
I have been where you are....keep taking it one second at a time! I choose to and still choose to be positive no matter how bad it gets! That doesn't mean I don't cry at times, but I do find the strength to believe that it will be okay! I will tell you most times when I feel really really sorry for myself, I meet or see someone in much more pain then I am or in a Wheelchair and it takes my breath away and humbles me! I then am very very grateful for all that I DO have!
Ahhh FJ you are always so giving how nice that your students present and past care so much about you as well!!