I was speaking at our graduation service tonight and felt compelled to tell, students, families, instructors, volunteers and staff that I would like to think we have no failures at the school. The fact that we work consistantly with drug and alcohol addicts some would say failure is inevitable. I would like to think we have no failures, just extended success stories. I had one man graduate and his journey to freedom from drugs has been over 4 years. Finally he graduated and has definitely been on an extended success road.
It is 10 pm and I just returned home. How can I apply that same statement to CP. We don't have failures just extended healing? But most of us don't get Healed. We don't fail but do we get a better level of functioning through life? Extended pain free days? Extended abilities that we thought were gone. The doctor says, failed back surgery. Failed nerve repair. This the best you will be. Where is the extended success story. I would be better if I was a drug addict or alcoholic. But wait I was a drug addict and alcoholic. I became an extended success story. But now that is in the shadows as pain keeps taking more and more. I laid down for a short time today but the pain was too strong and then when I started to relax and begin to rest, the phone rang. As I re-read my post "which pain is taking center stage" and then how what I am feeling tonight, why would depression want to sneak in at this time of life. He was not invited. Do we have to let our parties be invaded by unwanted and unwelcomed guests? Give me the guest list I want to take some guests off the list. Just have to endure another night and go back and start all over tomorrow.