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Pete trips again!
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   Posted 10/20/2009 1:32 AM (GMT -7)   
Good morning all,
Sorry about the title of this post but I just can't sleep w/ the pain I'm in and have no one to talk to or share my missery. I know that this has happened to so many of you and you understand and know exactly what I'm talking about. Thank God I can come to this wonderful place where I can share my frustrations with others who know and care.
The second trip up north took it's toll on me much worse than the first one. The falls I took while fishing in the stream and all the work I did getting my Mom's house closed for the winter put such a hurting on my back and neck and the long drive (1,300 mi.) in the rain didn't help matters. Mom's cats were pooping, puking and meowing in their crate the whole way down and Mom had to have the heat blasting because she was cold. That trip gets harder every year! One good thing came out of my time spent w/ Mom though. She agreed that she is getting too old (82) to stay alone and wants to move up here near us! I told her the best and fastest way to get her here would be for her to buy a manufactured home like we are in and put it on our property where we were going to build the house that fell through cause we can't sell our other home. She agreed because w/ a new home, everything is guaranteed and she will not have to worry about getting things fixed like if she bought a house up here. Plus she will be right here with us so she will not be scared! So along with getting the electric finished in the new barn that I promissed my wife I would do, I'm going to be looking for a double wide for Mom! I guess I'm gearing up for the Jerry Springer show! I never thought I'd be living in one of these things but it's worth it to be here in the country. I love it here and I know my Mom will too.
Then there is the ever nagging fact that my sick friend is living in my other house which we were going to be fixing up for sale or rent. He was going to do the work while staying there for free but in the last month and a half, he's been too sick to do anything. He is paying me for utillities but thats all and has no plans to move out. I feel so bad for him as the Dr's can't find out whats wrong w/ him and he's been in and out of the hospital for test. I think it's depression, he hasn't gotten over losing his wife to cancer almost a year ago and getting laid off from his job. It's awful and I'm ashamed to even bring it up but I keep thinking back to when I was sick, had prostate cancer surgery and was depressed to the max after getting laid off and having my identity stolen. He, my friend dropped me like I had the plaigue! I never heard from him, not once untill a year later when I started working again!! Now the shoe is on the other foot and I am so tempted to bring it up but so far I've held my toung! He keeps telling me that no one cares about him and no one helps him and he's been deserted by all his friends! I got fed up while loading furniture in my truck by MY SELF a couple days ago while he stood there complaining and said to him, NO> you have it wrong, I'm the one with no help!!! You have had me and have from the get-go and I've always been here for you!! I'm the one who has no one helping me, as usual killing myself to get things done alone!!
I'm sorry to be venting like this in the middle of the night but as so many of you know, sometimes it helps to get it out and know that someone is listening to you! Thanks for being here for me!
I'm going to try to go back to bed, the oxy & a tylonol I took when I started this post is starting to ease the pain a little. I know so many of you have much worse problems and pain than me and I'm a little ashamed for whining like this but I know and hope you understand! Thanks again for being here!
Your Brother,
Pete
 
When I was young, I broke almost evry bone in my body and I'm paying a heavy price now but I'm still here and so glad to see my two sons grow up to be fine young men. They are both serving in the US Navy, My oldest is serving on a aircraft carrier but is currently in advance radar school. The other is a Asault Ship "The Jaws of the Fleet" somewhere in the Persian Gulf w/ 2,000 Marines aboard. I am one very proud (what they call me)> Big Pops! 


Chartreux
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Date Joined Aug 2006
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   Posted 10/20/2009 7:29 AM (GMT -7)   
AWE Pete, try to take it easy for a day...Just one day...you need it
So rest up and deal with everything tomorrow..might help the pain level...
and you know you can "whine" anytime...we'll listen....
How are the horses doing? How many horses did you say you have?
(Fibro fog, I forget things, sorry...)
I thought three cats we're hard to deal with...
I don't know how you should handle your friend, so ...I just know he's lucky he's got you
as a friend...
Soft hugz coming your way and please try to take it easy or get into your doctor...
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Pete))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
yur friend chart,,,
hugz
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couchtater
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   Posted 10/20/2009 3:23 PM (GMT -7)   
(((((((((((((((((((((((Pete)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I'm glad your mom is going to move closer. It will be safer for her and you won't have to worry about her being far away.

Jou
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Lindaloo
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   Posted 10/20/2009 3:52 PM (GMT -7)   
Pete,

I hope you have a better night tonight. Geesh, you sure have been through it. I hope you are slowing down a little in the future. You can't keep going like this and not expect that it won't catch up to you, Pete.

Glad your mom is safe with you now. It's great that you still have her. Enjoy her while you do. Moms are precious. I wish I could have mine back, even for one day. Ah well.

God bless, Pete. I have missed talking with you!

Lindaloo

PS Where are you living now in Florida???
Co-Moderator Chronic Pain and Fibromyalgia Forums
 
Believe in yourself.  Be kind to fellow humans and animals.  Take time to smell the flowers and the coffee.
And by all means, when you are down, ask me for help.  I will be there.
 
Linda


golitho
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Date Joined Sep 2008
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   Posted 10/20/2009 4:44 PM (GMT -7)   
I agree with Linda, mom's are wonderful to have around, mine is 83 now and suddenly becoming fragile, like a bag of bones to hold. I wish I lived closer to catch up on all her memories.
Pete it seems pointless saying "take it easy" as you seem to live life far beyond your capabilities all the time.
I'm feeling the brunt of overdoing it myself and typically can't get in to see my specialist until December! Just have to soldier on I guess. I was up watching the UEFA cup, Liverpool lose to Lyon in a very exciting game at 5.30am Sydney time! I'd been awake off and on for 2 hours so can relate. Have to go to work soon.
But I'm thinking of that poor sad body of yours, totally overworked and abused! Try and be kind to it for a few days and let yourself recover, best wishes, golitho

Mrs. Dani
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   Posted 10/21/2009 3:52 PM (GMT -7)   
 
   Dear Pete,
 
     Good evening! *soft huggs* How are you doing tonight? Has the pain eased up atall? I sure hope so. I am very glad your mother will be moving closer, perm.. It will ease alot of stress for both of you, i'm thinking. And by the way, I dont think it matter "what" or "where" you call "home" as long as it is filled with Love, that is all that matters. And Love, you have plenty of!!!!
 
     I am truly very sorry for your friend. He will be in our hearts for sure. I was recently in a very similar situation with a friend (unfortunatly we no longer talk). It tuggs at my heart to know you too, are suffering with your friend. Has he ever thought about group theapy? Or joining a "group" of some sort, to get out and about , perhaps, find the hope hes lost somehow? I hate hearing of someone who is surrounded by caring compassionate souls, yet, feels terribly alone. He must be frightened.. My husband remind me that the only constant thing is "change" and is sounds like a "change" in his routeen would help.
 
     Now that you have everyone "settled-in", so to speak, I hope you too.. can settle-in and relax for the winter. Your endless compassion and caring for others warms my heart.. but you too, need some time to relax. I see I have managed to get a bit off track, so I will end this here, but know, your in our hearts and prayers.
 
*huggs*
  dani
TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,  
And sorry I could not travel both  
And be one traveler, long I stood


Pete trips again!
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Date Joined Nov 2006
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   Posted 10/21/2009 7:25 PM (GMT -7)   
Oh my! Thanks so much for writing to me and giving me some nice words!
Chart, thanks for the hugz> they felt sooooo good on this old broken sore body! We have two horses, a 16yo quarter horse/thorobred mare (Lilly) and a 8yo Tennissee walking horse gelding(El Dorado) but I call him the Big Lembowsski! They are both black/brown depending on how much sun they get. It's so much fun having them out back and I've been spending lots of time w/ them working on the electric in the barn. We also have two parrots, Angi & Pony-boy who are real charicters! They are just like little kids! Last but not least is Rose the wonderhound! She is incharge of the rest of them! She's 4yo cocker / coonhound mix but everyone thinks she's a baby lab puppy! She's small, about 25lbs, very short hair black w/ a white chest and blue (tick) spots on it. Everyone loves Rose!!! Thanks for asking!
Jou, thanks for the kind words. Your so right, I worry about Mom being alone, I just can't wait to get her closeby! I'm lucky that my wife and her get along super and always have! I think she is the "favorite" dawterinlaw!
Linda, I've missed you too! You are so right about me having to slow down! The past two days since I wrote this post I started working in the barn as soon as it got light and kept going untill 2pm when I completely pooped out! I went back to the house, ate some lunch and crashed untill 5:30pm!!! I then went back and cleaned up the mess I made in the morning and watched the horses w/ my wife while the sun went down. The feild faces west behind the house & barn so they are in the green pasture (for now, lots of rain!) with a beutiful sunset behind them. I love living in the country again! It's been way too long!!! I live in a really little town called Floral City (1 traffic light) between Inverness & Brooksville off Hwy#41 in the rolling hills about 15 miles from the Gulf of Mex. God Bless you too dear friend!!!
Golitho, your right mate! I just have to solder on too but at least I don't have to work like you do! I lesf my job and moved to the country w/ my wife back in June! This self abuse I bring on myself is out of guilt for not working anymore I guess. That and that I can't afford to pay anyone to do these things for me! I'm hoping that Lyon is your team, I know where Liverpool is but not Lyon??? God bless your Mom and all the Moms! The world would be a sad place w/o them! I hope you can hang in there till December! That sucks yiou can't see him / her any sooner!
Dani, Thank you so much for your gentle kind words. I can't tell you what it means to me to have you respond to my posts! After all you have been through and what you are still facing, it's a true wonder that you are such an angel! I fell so guilty and ashamed for whining the way I do when I think about you and the horrable pain you have daily! God bless you Little Sister! You are and have been on my prayer list.
Pease and Love my Brothers & Sisters and BIG HUGZ to ALL!!!!!!
Pete
When I was young, I broke almost evry bone in my body and I'm paying a heavy price now but I'm still here and so glad to see my two sons grow up to be fine young men. They are both serving in the US Navy, My oldest is serving on a aircraft carrier but is currently in advance radar school. The other is a Asault Ship "The Jaws of the Fleet" somewhere in the Persian Gulf w/ 2,000 Marines aboard. I am one very proud (what they call me)> Big Pops! 


Chartreux
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Date Joined Aug 2006
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   Posted 10/21/2009 8:17 PM (GMT -7)   
oh, the horses sound beautiful...I always wanted a horse, (growing up) my grandpa-pa had a palomino...
do try to take it easy Pete, maybe slowly fishing the wiring along the walls in the barn...and it'll
eventually get done...
now watching that sunset sounds like it did good for you...
will your son's be home for Thanksgiving and/or Christmas?
more soft hugz and kep us posted..
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Pete))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
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fatherjohn
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Date Joined Feb 2009
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   Posted 10/21/2009 9:31 PM (GMT -7)   
Pete, Good to hear you are home and back on the normal busy schedule. I know how it is, you are home and there are things to do so you do it. I posted a picture on the gallery of my shed that I just managed to finish. It took a year but finally got it done. Someone came into my office this week and asked how anyone can be in so much pain and keep going. I told them that there are many of us and we just plain refuse to give up. That does not mean that we don't pust the limits a bit far but that could be out of guilt or fear. At least you are at home and when you get pooped out, you can take a break. I still owe you a phone call and I will try and arrange it before your afternoon nap. Just kidding. I am glad you and the lovely bride are having more time together. By the way, how are sailors doing? Take care, talk to you soon. 

PAlady
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Date Joined Nov 2007
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   Posted 10/21/2009 9:34 PM (GMT -7)   
Pete,
I think I've given up suggesting you slow down! Wonder why? LOL Seriously, though, start taking care enough so you can enjoy a nice long retirement with your wife and the horses and your Mom next door!

((((((((((Pete)))))))))

Hope you have a good night's sleep tonight!

PaLady

Pete trips again!
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Date Joined Nov 2006
Total Posts : 1899
   Posted 10/23/2009 3:47 AM (GMT -7)   
Chart> Thanks again for the post! Yes, my boys are coming home right around New Years Day! Pete Jr/ couldn't get Chrismas off so Joe scheduled his leave as close as poss. to Pete's! We will be having Christmas in Jan. as it wouldn't be the same w/o them here! I think they will have at least a week together, they haven't seen eachother since last Chrismas and they are VERY close!!! It's been hard for them. Yes! I have been fishing the wires through PVC as I want everything out there to be watertight! Using all outdoor boxes and covers and waterproof light fixtures I got cheap from my old job. I also met up w/ a good friend last time I was south who is a job foreman and had a supply of leftover stuff he had been keeping in a trailer on a jobsite. He gave me tons of stuff incuding timeclocks and vapor proff fluorecent fixtures! Good Karma comes through again!
FJ, I've been thinking about you alot too! I was going to call you while standing hip deep in a stream up north once and fiddled around looking for my phone through all my pockets in my vest> I'm sure you remember what thats like especially when you haven't been fishin in a while! Can't remember where anything is! Anyway, when I finally found it> NO SERVICE!!! I will call you soon as I want to know what ever happened w/ your employer problems! Don't abswer here> I WILL CALL!!! Yes, I know that you know how I feel about > guilt>work> pain> You and I are SOOOO alike!!!
PA, I know you have given up on me! Who would blame you!!! Kind of like warning a kid about playing w/ fire right?? I know but you still love me anyway just like a stupid little kid! I hope so because like so many others here? We Love Yuze and all Y'all do for us!!! Even w/ my Southern fried Joisey lingo!
Big Hugz all a round!
Pete
Big
When I was young, I broke almost evry bone in my body and I'm paying a heavy price now but I'm still here and so glad to see my two sons grow up to be fine young men. They are both serving in the US Navy, My oldest is serving on a aircraft carrier but is currently in advance radar school. The other is a Asault Ship "The Jaws of the Fleet" somewhere in the Persian Gulf w/ 2,000 Marines aboard. I am one very proud (what they call me)> Big Pops! 


Chartreux
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   Posted 10/23/2009 9:25 AM (GMT -7)   
Sounds like things are working out okay for you Pete...
I hope it continues and make sure to get plenty of rest...
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Pete)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
hugz
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* Asthma, Allergies, Osteoarthritis, Spinal Stenosis, Degenative Disc, Fibromyalgia, Gerd,
Enlarged Pituitary Gland, Sjogren's and Ocular Migraines

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PAlady
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   Posted 10/23/2009 11:02 AM (GMT -7)   
Pete,
I definitely still love you!!! Just decided to watch and enjoy the little boy play with his "fires"! LOL But I'll still help put them out if they get too out of control!!! :-)

PaLady

straydog
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   Posted 10/23/2009 12:23 PM (GMT -7)   

Hey Pete, sorry you are feeling so rough. That usually happens when overdo overdoes lol. Maybe things will settle down after you are at home for awhile. Take some days and try to chill out.

Pete you have spoken here before about the fellow living in your other house. If you feel that this guy is not grateful for you allowing him to live in your house why not remove him. This seems to be stuck in your crawl.  Does this fellow have any idea you feel this way, I am sure if he did, he would probably move out of there. If he is not physically able to work on your home, then perhaps getting him out and hiring someone to come in and do the work would be the way to go, at least the work would get done. This is just extra baggage that seems to keep irritating you.  

Take care of yourself and slow down some.


Straydog/Susie
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crohns disease dx 2002 & small bowel resection, still looking for remission whatever that is, chronic pain 22 yrs, added ulcerative colitis 6-05 to the mix, high blood pressure 28 yrs, aortic heart valve insuffiency, depression, osteoarthritis, osteoporosis lumbar spine, scoliosis lumbar spine, peripheral neuropathy hands & feet, COPD & on oxygen therapy, lupus & decreased circulation in both legs. Several other health issues just not enough room to list it all. Too many surgeries to list and too many medications to list. Currently on 16 different daily medications. Intrathecal pain pump implanted June 05.

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