Until the past few days I had forgotten how bad the weather affected my pain...but now I remember with a vengence.
Here in Nashville area we are having the most odd weather...one day it's nice and pretty warm, the next it's raining, then the wind and cold set in....My pain is out of control.
I can't sleep, I can't relax...I can't do much of anything...Even taking my pain meds isn't helping me much. I don't know what to do.... I am so depressed.... I think the Holidays makes it worse for me...being in pain, not able to work, not able to be independent, having my mom pay for everything is awful... I am a grown woman that can't take care of myself or my son....
Sorry, I had to rant a bit... But it really didn't help...
Oh well, another day...
I have been a spectator for so long..Now it's time to participate.......
Post Lamenectomy Syndrome, Spinal Stenosis, DDD....
1999 Hemi Lamenectomy/2005 Spinal Fusion(L4-S1)
Methadone 120 mg. a day/ 30 mg. Oxycodone as needed(up to 4 x a day)
High Blood Pressure: Lisinopril HCTZ 10 mg. daily
Type 2 Diabetes: (March 16, 2009)
Metformin HCL ER 1000 mg. at night..Glipizide 10mg. 2X in the morning
Lantus 35 units at bedtime with Solostar Pen
I know that the weather is worse where you are...and I shouldn't complain, I live in Tn. so it's not so bad here, but when it does get cold ,rainy and windy it really hits me all over....
I'm lucky that I do get TennCare and Foodstamps..and I am trying for SSI, I don't qualify for SSD because I haven't worked enough in the last 10 years...I haven't worked in over 8....so I know I am lucky...but not having an income of my own, and having to rely on my mom for any money really puts a damper on me...I hate not being able to just go to the store and buy something...but I shouldn't complain.
Thanks for all the support everyone...it really means so much. Sometimes I forget that some other people are much worse off then me so I need to think about that.
Pain shouldn't define me but sometimes I can't help that it does. I can't go one day without thinking about it or talking about it...I wish I could.
So, gotta run for now...I am trying to put up decorations outside...Gotta actually climb a ladder....Oh man, that's scary...
Oh Straydog, You are right there with me aren't you? I hate not being able to do things on my own..sometimes I overdue it just to prove to myself and everyone else that I can do it..but of course i suffer for it. I still haven't done the outside decorating yet....I was going to do it yesterday but didn't feel like it. So, now I have to do it today because I borrowed a ladder from my neighbor.
I haven't applied yet, I am still trying to get all of my records from almost 20 years ago...what an ordeal... I am waiting for some to come from Knoxville, Tn. and I want to do it right....so I don't have any trouble.
I love the Holidays but it can be so nerve racking....Have a great day..