Hi Frenchie and welcome back to Healing Well. I do hope you will hang out with us continue to post.
It is very difficult living the life of a CPer and I guess there is no real cut and dried way of trying to figure out how to survive it. I think for most of us its all trial and error. Finding way to deal with and learning how to accept things as they are. It tough I know that and a very long process.
I do hope for your sake you are able to handle this new job you have coming up. Please let us know how things go for you.
Frenchie, Welcome back....I know what you mean about being at home 24/7. I haven't worked in over 8 years....I know, it's too long. But I have a 16 year old son that I have been taking care of by myself since he was 4....and I know all about Depression.... Some days I don't even take a shower and get dressed...just because I really have NO REASON to. This life of CP can send you down a long and dark tunnel....spiralling so fast that you feel like there's no way out. I feel that way alot. I also have dreams....weird dreams. Sometimes I dream that I am in a World in such turmoil but the only thing I worry about is finding pain meds...I dream about going into Pharmacies and bagging up every narcotic I can find....just so I'll always have them.... I know it sounds very much like an addicts behavior..but I do worry about it. I think it's the depression.
We are here for you....just like they are here for me...The people here have helped me through some pretty bad times. If I didn't have this forum to run to I would go crazy..
I have been a spectator for so long..Now it's time to participate.......
Post Lamenectomy Syndrome, Spinal Stenosis, DDD....
1999 Hemi Lamenectomy/2005 Spinal Fusion(L4-S1)
Methadone 120 mg. a day/ 30 mg. Oxycodone as needed(up to 4 x a day)
High Blood Pressure: Lisinopril HCTZ 10 mg. daily
Type 2 Diabetes: (March 16, 2009)
Metformin HCL ER 1000 mg. at night..Glipizide 10mg. 2X in the morning
Lantus 35 units at bedtime with Solostar Pen