Thanks everyone for your replies. It made me feel better somehow. Knowing that I am not alone in this situation does make a difference as such.
Uniquelyme, I find your reply quite refreshing. The sincerity with which you convey how you feel and what you really think no matter what is quite amazing. I have also that habit of keeping all my meds just in case I ever need them again and believe it or not, I had the same thoughts about breaking into a drugstore and looting all the narcs just to make sure I would not lack any ever and that I wouldn't have to beg my doctor every time I need something. I know it's insane but pain can drive you to that sort of foolishness.
Suzane, I am from Quebec, Montreal, hence my username "Frenchie". I am perfectly bilingual though. Headaches are a tough one. I think of all the place of experiencing CP, the head must be quite gruesome. My heart goes out to you. I hope you have some support, a hubby, parents etc. to help you through that. As for me , I am alone, Which makes it all the more challenging. I heard Ottawa was a beautiful city, very clean and safe. Hope I can visit some day...
Tina, when I read you I though, including myself it goes without saying: how young to suffer so much! When people tell me: "don't worry, ou are still young! I just feel like telling them morons: precisely, that means I still have a long road ahead of me dealing with that calamity. What's so positive about that? Let me ask you though, what kind of help can you get in the States if you can't work and have no trouble proving it?
Frances, thank you for the input and all the good tips. They did not fall in deaf ears.