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Retired Mom
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   Posted 3/22/2010 9:46 AM (GMT -7)   
Hello HW Family,
 
It's time for me to retake the comprehensive exam for my masters that I failed about six months ago.  I need all the prayers and support I can get!  I think the reason I failed was possibly because of the memory problems related to the human growth hormone deficiency.  My IQ went from the 130's to 94 (judged by a SSD DR)....but they still denied me.  Otherwise I have a 4.0 and have completed all of my courses.  I did all that thinking I was going back to work, but that didn't work out.....now I'm just trying to finish what I started to prove that I can.  It's really hard and I want so badly to quit!
 
Anyway, this week holds a great deal of stress and I could use a word of encouragement.  My hands are somewhat better and not killing me today, so I'm hoping they will hold out for the test on Wednesday.  Tonight is a "family" get together for a 1 year old (that I am obligated to attend, but do NOT want to go to), tomorrow is a 2 1/2 hour trip to stay in a hotel so that I can test on Wednesday and then drive home.  My husband has just cancelled being able to drive me and I'm having to depend on a friend (who is just getting over the swine flu) to ride so that I don't freak out.  Then on Thursday, I have to drive 1 hour each way to the Endocrinologist, followed by another family "gathering" on Friday.  Saturday is an Easter Egg Hunt at the Church, Sunday is a Cantatta (sp) and Monday is a PM Apt that has me really concerned about future care.   This is the same one who gave me so many problems about the handicap placard.
 
To top it all off, I went "shopping" with my sister this weekend (which consisted of three stores...all with very short walks and very short stays), but we had to ride an hour each way.  She was great, but I was so overwhelmed with pain and exhaustion that I almost fell at the last store.  I was really mad when the clerk "ran me out of the dressing room" to let in a handicap person.  I explained in no uncertain words that I was disabled too and that I had never been run out of a dressing room.  I then reported her to management because she was rude!!  I even told them they could walk to the car and see the permit if they needed to and told them not to judge a person simply because of appearance.  The dressing clerk was wonderful and could see that I was in horrible pain.  I was trying to find maternity jeans because they are the only kind that I can wear even now a year after my back surgery.   Then all of my fresh food spoiled in the car!!!!!
 
Thanks for letting me vent!
Formerly PrayingForRealRelief...
 
DDD, CHRONIC PAIN SYNDROME, TLIF L5-S1 2009 (failed), FIBRO, MINEYER'S (SP?), VERTIGO, MIGRAINES, GERD, SLEEP DISORDER, NISSEN FUNDOPLICATION (failed), DEPRESSION, EXTREME ANXIETY DISORDER, OCPD, PTSD, CHRONIC MUSCLE SPASMS, HUMAN GROWTH HORMONE DEFICIENCY, VITAMIN D DEFICIENCY, CARPLE TUNNEL SYNDROME, EXTREME IDIOPATHIC HYPOGLYCEMIA FROM AGE 12
 
 
 
 


merrygirl
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   Posted 3/22/2010 9:57 AM (GMT -7)   
retiredmom. Iwish you the best of luck! I hope you nail this exam! You can do it!


hugs,
melissa
Chronic Lyme Disease,Fibromyalgia, CFS, PCOS, sleep apnea, hypothyroidism, type 2 diabetes, bulging discs to name a few


Chartreux
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   Posted 3/22/2010 11:12 AM (GMT -7)   
First of all just try to get a goods night sleep on Tuesday, so that you'll be better able to cope.
and of course, lots of good luck and well wishes, you pass with flying colors this time..
vent away when ever you need to we understand..Prayers and soft hugz coming your ways...
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hugz..
keep us posted on the test, but you'll do good...
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MIKEL99
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   Posted 3/22/2010 11:22 AM (GMT -7)   
retiredmom , many congrats to you for even being in position to take such a important test ! What a great accomplishment ! i wish you all the luck and my prayers too , I think thats an amazing accomplishment . It show great dediction and perseverance on your part ! excellent job and the best of luck to you l Mikel
HIV+ also Hep c , need hip replacement surgery on hold because of unknown but cellulitus-like ailment  .most pain from hip condition and cellulitus-like ailment .hands numb may have carpal tunnel syndrome now . Great frustration because doctors unable to diagnos ailment              .Medecines -   Celelbrex ,viracept,truvada, lasix .    '                                                                                                                         


PAlady
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   Posted 3/22/2010 12:53 PM (GMT -7)   
Retiredmom,
I read all the things on your mind that you listed in your post and no wonder you're feeling overwhelmed. I'm going to say something you may not like but it is said out of kindness, so please keep that in mind!

Focus on YOU right now. Just you. You are allowed to say "no" to a family gathering you don't want to go to, and you don't need any more stress than what you already have. If you want to pass those exams you need to give your body every bit of rest and relaxation you can between now and then. If you have some relaxation tapes to listen to, or calming music, try to do that. Or close your eyes and imagine the most soothing place you can in your mind. Give yourself the permission to do this for you.

Then worry about all the doctor stuff after the tests. Trust that you will do your best, and that's all any of us can do. And the outcome will be what it is. But the more you push yourself between now and then the less rest your brain will get.

Be good to yourself!

Good luck!

PaLady

kimber9807
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   Posted 3/22/2010 1:00 PM (GMT -7)   
Good Luck. I will be thinking of you and praying for you. I hope you have a lpd.
im dxed with  herniated discs,fibromylagia , scolosis,ddd,athritis, spinal stenosis ,gerd,gastric ulcer,gastroparesis and aslo gallbladder disease aka biliary colic.
 
meds:bentyl,zofran aciphex ,ambien and  trazodone.


Snowbunny21
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   Posted 3/22/2010 1:10 PM (GMT -7)   
I totally agree with PALady!...I would just tell your family politely that you just can't make it this time...that you have this big exam coming up and you need to study...and if they get upset...well..that is their deal...just let it roll off...

Focusing on ourselves is different from being selfish....

And yes...stress will make our pain a thousand times worse and wreak havoc...so remember that you control what thoughts go into your brain...and you can never please everyone...and when someone is acting stupid like the person in the store...just take a deep breath...smile at them ..and say."ok..have a great day:)"....

i really just don't let things get to me anymore...my health is too important...and I realize that other people could be having a terrible day...like lets say that person in the store just lost their mom or something...doesn't give everyone excuses to act like a jerk...but I try to always think.."I'll just give them the benefit of the doubt and move on"....

I realized that I control my own stress level and it can be zero if I choose...

So I will say some prayers for you to do a fantastic job on this exam...We are SO proud of you..what an accomplisment for you!!! Give yourself a treat like a mani/pedi...massage...or something you love after all this is done!!

Big hugs..
SB and "the pup who snores loudly" 
 
ACDF C5-C7, (no hardware), with autograft bone Nov. 2001
(reabsorption of bone 2 years later...still lost in body..expect to burp it out at anytime..haha")) 
ACDF with hardware, allograft bone Nov. 2005 
Anterior and Posterior CDF, allograft bone with BMP, removal of old hardware, use of titanium plates, rods, screws, & kitchen sink (lol) Dec 2006
 
 


skeye
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   Posted 3/22/2010 1:29 PM (GMT -7)   
Retiredmom,

Good luck on your exam!! You'll be in my thoughts & prayers.

hugs,
skeye

catahoula
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   Posted 3/22/2010 3:05 PM (GMT -7)   
best wishes and sending you whatever brain cells I have left! Envious of anyone who can finish higher education degrees while in constant pain.
"You go grrl!!!'"
Cata
sick and tired of being sick and tired


Stella Marie
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   Posted 3/22/2010 3:26 PM (GMT -7)   
Dear Retired,

Good luck on your test. Too bad it is all or nothing. When I took the CPA exam, it was in four sections. This allowed to you passed certain sections and fail another. I passed 3 of the 4 the first time and the retook the 4th during the next testing period. A comprehensive test like that should be broken out into sections.

My thought and prayers are with you. Make sure you paack an emergency kit for the test. Meds, cough drops, tissues, aspirin, Rolaids, gum, etc. be prepared to everything. I am sure you will do fine.

Stella Marie   Chronic Pain Forum Moderator

Progressive neurodegenerative disease called Multiple System Atrophy, muscle spasms, muscle pain, neuropathy, & neuropathic pain, central sleep apnea, osteoarthritis, and 2 pain implants – intrathecal pain medication pump and an SCS (spinal cord stimulator).  Extra fun little toys and gadgets; O2 generator and assorted wheelchairs, walkers, canes, and orthotic braces.  Med - too many too list or even care about!

 

 



Retired Mom
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   Posted 3/22/2010 5:42 PM (GMT -7)   
Thank you all!!!! I actually did not go tonight and studied instead. It did not go over well, but like you said....I have to concentrate on this now.

Stella, thank you for thinking of me about the 3 of 4 sections. That is actually what I did on this....past 3 of the 4 sections. This is the one that is left. That's why it's all or nothing this time.

Each of you are so special to me and your kindness means the world to me!!! I will keep you in my mind while I'm studying.

Have a great evening all!!!
Formerly PrayingForRealRelief...
 
DDD, CHRONIC PAIN SYNDROME, TLIF L5-S1 2009 (failed), FIBRO, MINEYER'S (SP?), VERTIGO, MIGRAINES, GERD, SLEEP DISORDER, NISSEN FUNDOPLICATION (failed), DEPRESSION, EXTREME ANXIETY DISORDER, OCPD, PTSD, CHRONIC MUSCLE SPASMS, HUMAN GROWTH HORMONE DEFICIENCY, VITAMIN D DEFICIENCY, CARPLE TUNNEL SYNDROME, EXTREME IDIOPATHIC HYPOGLYCEMIA FROM AGE 12
 
 
 
 


PAlady
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   Posted 3/22/2010 8:24 PM (GMT -7)   
I want to second the idea of treating yourself after you take the test - regardless of the outcome.

It's a great accomplishment to just get through it!

From one of your cheerleaders. yeah

PaLady
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