Welcome to our Family.....I am so sorry to hear your story, you have been through so much. No wonder you feel as you do, you have had major trauma. Being aware of all that was happening around you and hearing the comments made by the Dr.'s has probably left alot of emotional scars. Did you at some point let them know you heard their comments?
Most of us here have had to adjust to a different lifestyle following injuries, surgeries etc. Going from being active, working full time and loving it....to SSD and CP changed my life drastically. I have not been through anything near your experience, my heart goes out to you!
Have you met with your family and told them how you are feeling? Do you have a PMD?
Just know that we are here with our support and hugs!
HIV+ , Need hip replacement , have a cellulitus like condition on leg that is stubborn , using anti-biotics to try to get rid of but its stubborn .Started eating completley healthy juicing every day , no sugar , taking vitiamins and anti-oxidents , virigin coconut oil ,only veggies and fruits mostly , no red meat .feel better.Meds:viracept truvada,indothemicin. Pain from hip and leg use cane or rolator to walk .
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,And sorry I could not travel bothAnd be one traveler, long I stood
As I read your post I found myself hurting more and more...just thinking about the pain you must feel, the depression, anxiety....I couldn't write back until now. I am so sorry that your life feels so hopeless. You have been through so much in a short time, it's no wonder you feel this way. But, it will get better. Your body will take a long long time to start to heal properly...and your mind will take time as well. Being in pain is the worst...but being alone to deal with it is even worse...I am so glad you found us...we are all nuts, ha ha, but we understand more then anybody else what you are going through. I have not been in a horrific accident, but I have been through enough with my back pain that I know a little of how you feel. I really don't have anyone in my family to talk to about it...and it makes it even mnore painful to go it alone. You need to talk to someone....anyone who understands. It's a good thing you came here. There are a lot of people here that can help you...just talk to us. Anytime, day or night, there is usually someone here. If not then email me...it's on my profile....
I'll be here if you need me....we all are.
I have been a spectator for so long..Now it's time to participate.......
Post Lamenectomy Syndrome, Spinal Stenosis, DDD....
1999 Hemi Lamenectomy/2005 Spinal Fusion(L4-S1)
Methadone 120 mg. a day/ 30 mg. Oxycodone as needed(up to 4 x a day)
High Blood Pressure: Lisinopril HCTZ 10 mg. daily
Type 2 Diabetes: (March 16, 2009)
Metformin HCL ER 1700 mg. at night..Glipizide 10mg. 2X in the morning and bedtime
Lantus 50 units at bedtime with Solostar Pen
Byetta 5 mcg. 2X daily