Good morning. My name is Dani and it is very nice to meet you. As you can see, we have a great group of members here. All very loving, compassionate, caring people who also suffer from chronic pain.
I am terribly sorry you are having such a hard time coping with the fact that you will be in pain the rest of your life. I too, had a VERY hard time uderstanding that as well. I sought out the assistance of a pain psychologist. They specialize in the treatment of patients with chronic pain. They are trained with behavioural therapy, biofeedback... help to "re-build" you. Help you to become a new person who has chronic pain as a part of your life, but not what defines you. Here is a good article..
If you are also struggling with depression, then talk with your doctor about it. Many times chronic pain patients struggle with depression as well. Your doctor will know the best places to go to treat that aspect that can sometimes accompany chronic pain.
I know that neither of these options provide a "quick fix", but just as it is a long and hard road to effective diagnosis and treatment of your painful conditions... so is the road to mind and body wellness.
It was very nice to meet you. Please, stay strong and hang in there.