Venting? I'm gonna only let myself do 2. I could sit on here all day...lol This is good though Dani ...helps to get things out and write/type them down.
Here goes and I'll just say sorry now incase my language gets colorful.
I feel I am the"Go To" for family. A bit of a Savior thingy. I am the one people can always count on to be there. The one that trys to listen to ALL sides before making a choice. The one who will notice if somebody needs help without them asking and take time out of my life to be available....I end up asking my self WHY? why do I place myself in this position? Is it learned? Is it because of attention? Is it because I don't feel love for myself.....idk!!!
It doesn't matter where, who, why or what...my family takes advantage of me. I try to put everyone else first. Because this is what I was taught to do. But, in todays world your sapossed to put yourself first ....it's so confusing.
I just really wish I could have a "whatever" attitude most of the time. My Mom was alot like this...she passed away about 10 years ago and when she died I thought, she didn't do anything for herself. Now here I am....doing the same thing. When all is said and done in this world you make you own path most of the time....I need a new path.
I just want 1 Doctor and only 1...
I have 6. Can't seem to get them on the same page. It's all so Da_n Much when your feeling so F'in sick to try and contact all the right people for the right dx. It's a full-time job to be sick!
It's really a wonder our healthcare system works at all. I see why people just go to the ER for random things because getting to know the ropes is all too much....I still crack up when my husband says things like....If you take one kid in just have the Dr. look at the other kid...(he's still living in the dark ages)..haha
Crohns, Diabetes type 2, Fibro, (Depression and Anxiety..who wouldn't?) Back surgery on herniated L-4 L-5 and S-1. Total of 13 surgerys!
Imran 200 mlg, Asacol, Colestid, Bentyl, Lamotil, Paxil, Amitriptlyne, Nexium, Probiodicts, Vit D, Folic Acid, Lots of Potassium, Fish Oil, up to 6 Immodium a day. Oh, and one Giant Pill holder!