Well... Where to start?
My pain scale is the lowest it has ever been in the three years I have been in pain. As I sit here typing, it is at a 6. No kidding. I am consistantly making it to 5 and 6pm before I reach an average of level 8. I am sleeping 4 to 5 hours per night, only waking 5-10 times per night. This morning I slept for 4 hours. I only woke 6 times. I just took my meds, enjoyed a fresh cup of coffee with way to much creamer and waited for the sun to come up. I felt really nice.
I don't like the "foggyness" that came with the medicine increases. It still makes the "inside me" uncomfortable. I think it is safe to assume this is as good as things will get with reguards to tolerance to the meds. I just wish it wasn't so.. detached... so... uncomfortable.
My caffiene ban has finally been lifted. I was under the impression that it would be life long. Though it did effect my testing by 1 to 2 points, it is such a small difference that I can safly consume a mild amount of caffiene again. It helps to battle the "foggyness" minimally, but enough to help somewhat.
I am confused and baffled right now. Perhaps it is just because of the meds... It hardly seems fair? To finally be so low on the pain scale and still have such termendous decisions in my future? Mixed up, backwords world we live in.