My first post. hi everyone
Please excuse any spelling or grammatical errors but the bloody PAIN keeps me up every night and I feel like I'm in a different dimension or something. I feel like Im losing my mind, scratch that : lost my mind. I am literally surviving off of rest, no actually REM sleep, just rest. I didn't know it was possible to survive off of just rest and no actual sleep but it turns out i was wrong. I can survive off of just rest but of course at this point I'm starting to hallucinate and have delusional thinking from the sleep deprivation so yeah its surviving but what kind of way is this for a person to live their life. I cant work, cant sleep, cant enjoy anything at all. I'm depressed because of the pain so i was prescribed remeron but it still doesn't help because its the pain that is causing the depression and I told them that but they are acting like Im drug seeking when Im not at all. They really are making it hard for me to get pain meds, did any of you have this huge of a problem getting pain medicine?
In July 2011 I got something called rhabdomyolysis. I dont know much about
it except i wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. The rhabdomyolysis apparently causes muscle death or something, and since my case was severe the toxins that are released into your system(blood steam I guess. my urine was bloody tea colored almost black, scared the heck out of me) from the muscle dying caused my kidneys to fail so i needed dialysis for three weeks. this was the sickest I have ever been and i will never forget the day i almost died from rhabdomyolysis, i mean the pain was so bad they gave me dilauded for three weeks.
Now I am only on Connecticut state insurance so I'm not getting the best care. Every doctor i have been to has told me I had different things to explain the pain/weird sensation in my left foot, hamstring muscle (i think thats what its called,its the muscle behind my left leg above the knee) and a weird sensation around my ear and the right side of my face where the dialysis was hooked up to in my neck. My neck/face started out as pain but now its a weird sensation I cant explain to anyone unless they had it themselves.
I had doctors tell me my foot pain was a sprained foot but three months later i still had pain so it wasnt a spained foot . The pain in my foot started as a pain level 10 then 9, 8, 7 and its now 7 months after the rhabdomyolysis its at about
a 5/6. Another doctor told me it was muscle death and then kicked me out of the building with no pain meds even though it felt like my foot was in a vice 24/7 .Then I had doctors telling me it was neuropathic pain and they gave me neurotin which did absolutely nothing for my pain or my sleep. I was told the neurotin would help me sleep as well, idiot doctors man. Im getting so sick of them...like none of them will prescribe pain meds. Then they gave me something called tramadol for awhile but that was so weak, it was equal to taking about
three pills of acetaminophen or just drinking water lol. What do you guys think it is do you think its muscle death? and it feels all weird and painful because the muscle cells are trying to grow back or something? or some kind of neuropathy?
Im also looking for chronic pain management support groups in my area. Im from Hamden , Connecticut and cant find any. I live close to Yale New Haven Hospital and I don't even think they have anything like that for free or that will take state insurance. I mean you think they would have free chronic pain support groups just like AA and NA, they should!Are they rare?
So yeah Im in pain and I would rather be dead then lose another day of sleep. I was prescribed ambien for like two weeks then they told me its addictive and bad for you so they stopped it and gave me trazadone, which had no effect. I tried diphenhydramine, doxylamine succinate and melatonin , they do not work either. I was also prescibed Amitriptyline for sleep which is odd because its just another anti-depressant i dont need, it didnt work either. i need something strong because I'm no amateur insomniac at this point. i should be given an award or something for dealing with this pain and sleep deprivation without pain meds. the point is the pain is really horrible and i need help and friends who are also in a lot of pain to talk to.
I had to go in and edit out a few of your words, please know this forum has rules in place concerning language. With it being a public forum we never know the age of the person reading posts here, thanks.
Post Edited By Moderator (straydog) : 1/13/2012 3:13:22 AM (GMT-7)