Thanks for the support Toni & TDoern. I went back to see the doctor yesterday and told him about my pain problems. He took new xrays which showed the fusion to be doing well and the hardware to be ok, so he's sending me for another MRI. I had one in April that showed everything to be ok, but I really wasn't having most of the problems then and it was well before I went back to work. He has taken me off work until I get the MRI done and he sees the results. I am really grateful about this - I feel better not having to sit all the time.
I did 7 months of PT after the surgery and stretch every day, as I now realize how important this is! My PT said I had the tightest hamstrings he's ever seen! (Not something to be proud of!)
My doctor also put my back on Lyrica - maybe it will work better this time.
Toni, I am happy to know you were able to carry twins. My husband and I are hoping to get pregnant when my back heals. Sorry to hear you're now in pain again, but it must be a relief to not have the numbness and sciatica.
I relate so much to all you said in your posting. I am 36 and most everyone around me (all but a few) cannot understand why I can possibly still be having back problems a year after surgery. I too have stopped telling people my back hurts, because unless you have been through it, no matter how well meaning someone may be, it is very difficult for them to understand.
I am sorry you have to have another surgery - it does make you wonder when it is going to end. The leg, back and butt pain drive me nuts. I try to keep a positive attitude, but some days I do better at this than others. I get very depressed and frustrated - I want to be out and about doing things. I do understand what you are saying about enjoying the things you can do though. It must have been nice to take your son to Disney.