Today is my third day back to work after about a week and a half off for the holiday. I am completely exhausted. I feel like someone's been beating me with a stick. If I feel like this after only 2 full days of work, how am I going to make it through a full week next week? I'm not sick enough for disability, but I'm not healthy enough to effectively work a 40 hour week. I live on my own and support myself- I can't afford to work part time.
Just before Thanksgiving my boss sat me down and told me that if I didn't get better soon he would have to replace me after the first of the year. He's quite obviously watching me right now, and monitoring my progress. I can't afford to lose this job. The insurance is phenomenal and fully funded by the company. What do I do?
I'm thinking about asking for a temp to come in and help with some of the seasonal filing work. Our fiscal year is the same as the calendar year, so it's time to start all new payables and receivables files. The system I worked with last year was inherited from the girl who had the job before me, and it just doesn't work for the volume of sales. Old files need to be packed up for off-site storage. And the supply closet needs a complete overhaul- you don't dare go in right now without a hard hat. The idea of trying to do all this myself makes me want to curl up under my desk and cry.
I know he'd be open to having someone come in for these specific tasks. What I'd really like is to find a way to cut my hours back some, too, at least until my third Remicade treatment on the 16th. That's the part I'm not sure about. On the one hand, I honestly don't know how I'm going to make it through working full time. On the other, I'm afraid to ask for what I need, because I don't want to lose this job if I can avoid it.