So i find if talk about things i feel better, well i talk my family and friends ears off because i am going through so much and no matter what i know its hard for them to understand still i was thinking of going to the support group here in the city but i dont have the time. So here i am typing away to you lovely people who i barely know but i know enough that many of you know how i feel. So as i have posted before i was diagnosed June 07. Up until that point i was a 22/f doing whatever i wanted whenever i wanted which included completing a certificate at college, working 2 jobs sometimes up to 7 days a week and even finding time to volunteer and make some trips to the mountains to rock/ice climb.
Overall i have alot on my plate just trying to "grow up" and get settled in my career and now i have this constant bother of my health which of course should have always been on my mind before but i was never forced to think about it unless i wanted too and now...well it sucks...the toilet is the reminder when my health sucks lol.
So i still work my 2 jobs and office during the week and waitress on the weekends, i have taken up 2 night time classes which take mon and wed night and sat mornings with homework and exams in between. Pleas note these classes are being paid for by my compay. Well.....ina ll my excitement of getting a degree bettering myself and eventually moving up that corporate latter....i forgot about my health, over the last week i have felt like crap missed a couple classes and i am tired all the time. i dont think the stress is helping i am feeling overwhelmed and just frustrated that i can't do what i know i could have done before this stupid disease. bottom line i dont have time to be sick...
i guess my main problem is...i can accept the fact i have something wrong with me, but i am having a hard time accepting that i can't do what i use too.. Just wondering if anyone else had this problem..and if they did anything to help them cope.