I had my first real accident today, you know where your buns 'o steel give up on you and out it flows. I really thought I would be older, but CD holds no judgements of age. I am saddened by this and frustrated and mad and embarrassed. Every time I feel I have accepted this disease, it tests my patience again. I now need to clean my seat in my car. I am sure I will laugh about this some day, but for now I feel a little older and less in control of my life. What upsets me the most is that I was only driving two miles. I couldn't hold it for two stupid miles. It makes me want to stay home where I am by a potty. Tonight I will cry and probably eat and then hopefully I will pick myself up and try again tomorrow. I have my second remicade treatment this Friday and I am very excited. I feel this is the answer my family and I have been waiting for. Thanks for listening and send an extra hug my way if you can.
Aw, don't be embarrassed, I know it is hard but everyone goes through this! At least you were in your car! Here is an extra hug for you :)
Thanks so much. The hugs made me feel better. I knew you guys would be able to relate. I look forward to tomorrow and I am even going to a ballgame with my hubby, Go Rockies! I will sleep better tonight because you touched my heart. Thank You!!!
JenLS- My nurse said I probably wouldn't notice a difference from my first treatment, but I am in less pain and I have more energy. I still have tons of D and arthritis, but I like to think the remicade is already helping. As I said my second treatment is Friday and I plan on feeling better this weekend.
Hugs back to all of you! Thanks for making my night wonderful