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LMills
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Date Joined Apr 2008
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   Posted 8/21/2008 8:29 PM (GMT -7)   
Apologies in advance, but I am so frustrated right now....
It hurt so badly to walk around campus today. I will have to take a pain killer every Thursday for the rest of the school year because my lab is four hours long, and you have to stand the entire time. There is no room for a stool at our work stations. I can't buy any of my school books until tomorrow, but I already have page after page of homework assigned so I can't even study for it let alone do it. I've been trying to work on my chemistry homework and was doing fine until I hit conversion factors which would be all right EXCEPT that I cannot concentrate so I'm sitting here confused and frustrated at at the order of operations in which to do so. Convert 332 m/s to m/h okay...very simple and I cannot comprehend it for the life of me. I just sit there dazed and confused. My vision is extremely blurry because of my medication, my concentration is broken because of my medication, and I am exhausted at the end of the day from walking to my classes which are all pretty close together in the first place(I passed out for three hours after I got home). I'm worried..I have to be able to understand and remember, but I can barely remember what I've read just two seconds ago. I'm tired of being in a haze and, I especially am tired of being in pain 24/7 from overexerting myself just to go to school, which is my only source of income so taking a break is out of the question. Blahhhhh. And I'm tired of losing blood!! My birthday is tomorrow and I can't eat my ritual pumpkin cake with cream cheese icing...a popsicle will have to suffice as a substitute, but sometimes I really miss my comfort food...Basically, I am hungry, grumpy, confused, and wanting so badly to understand but cannot right now because of the medication I have to take to feel semi-normal. And it's already 11:30! I still have to finish my chemistry chapter and take a shower, but I have to get up at 8 and I need to sleep. Sorry for the complaints, but I have nowhere else to say it...no one else would understand anyway. I need to go practice breathing exercises or something...

But to be fair, good things from today:
My lab manual I found out will only cost ten dollars instead of seventy six
I got to eat chinese food, moo goo gai pain anyway because it's basically just tender chicken and white rice
I got lovely birthday cards in the mail today so I have a little extra money just for myself
I made it through my lab WITHOUT a pain killer(I took one later so I could stop the stomach pain and eat my cheese and crackers)
My lab teacher Dr. Hazari and TA Garrett both seem like very pleasant people
I'm alive and able to walk for the most part..
My boyfriend and brother are getting along really well(my brother just got back from Japan after a year and is living with us in our apartment)
I at least lost a little less blood today
My boyfriend and I have a brand new car that starts! The monthly payments are a little high but being careful with our budget will allow it
I have this place to find sanctuary
20 years old, Diagnosed with severe Crohn's and colitis in May of 2008.
Currently taking:
Prednisone, pentasa, alinia, bentyl, prilosec, tandem plus, and the occasional ultracet
Surgery for ectopic pregnancy(very possibly due to Crohn's inflammation) in July of 2008.
Due to start Imuran September 17 depending on blood results.


78SilvAnniv
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Date Joined Apr 2008
Total Posts : 289
   Posted 8/21/2008 8:44 PM (GMT -7)   
Step away from the homework! No, I'm serious. When you get that frustrated, you develop a bit of a mental block and keep short-circuiting and going around and around in the same loop. Step away, do something completely different for at least 15min and then go back to it. I found I'd have to have a break of at least an hour to get rid of the aggitation it was causing me.
The biggest thing that helped me in chemistry, was to remind myself that it is basically math. Math you can blow yourself up with if you get it wrong, but it is still *just* math.
Breathe. The frustration won't last forever.
Heidi
I have the ability of single-minded determination and accurate project focu....Hey, look, a cat!
 
Crohn's and UC are pretty darn crappy, but if you can't laugh at yourself, you'll cry. 
I'd much rather laugh.
2001 Dx'd with UC.  No remission.  5/2008 surgery, removal of 6" of left side colon.  Dx changed to Crohn's.  Remission for 8-9wks after surgery, symptoms returning after resuming 6MP.


Keeper
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Date Joined Jun 2008
Total Posts : 1058
   Posted 8/21/2008 11:20 PM (GMT -7)   
You are stressing out and that only makes the problem worse. Since exercise and sports are not likely to appeal to you, you have a couple of choices for dealing with stress. Meditation or medication. You should try whatever suits your taste. If you prefer natural, you can try Valerian (gives you funny dreams). You are also probably not eating good safe nutritious food. Don't I sound like your mom now? You don't say what you use for pain killers, but make sure that it is not a NSAID (aspirin, ibuprofen etc.). I think Tylenol is ok. To return to the first part, stress alone is quite enough to cause all your medical problems. Breathing exercises might just be the ticket. It could still be your medication like you said, but it sounds like you are having more trouble than I would have expected.

LMills
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   Posted 8/22/2008 4:42 AM (GMT -7)   
I use pain killers my doctor prescribed, and believe me, I have been extremely careful with my diet...
It's just a rant to vent my stress. I'm normally a really laid back, zen kind of person. But I need to get this stuff off of my chest in a healthy way, and I feel like these boards are a great place to do it.

I still really appreciate your responses though. I ate something and took a shower afterward and then cried a lot haha. It helped. Although things sure do hurt again this morning, but I'll learn to deal. I just took a bentyl a little while ago too so surely it will help.
20 years old, Diagnosed with severe Crohn's and colitis in May of 2008.
Currently taking:
Prednisone, pentasa, alinia, bentyl, prilosec, tandem plus, and the occasional ultracet
Surgery for ectopic pregnancy(very possibly due to Crohn's inflammation) in July of 2008.
Due to start Imuran September 17 depending on blood results.


FitzyK23
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Total Posts : 4219
   Posted 8/22/2008 5:59 AM (GMT -7)   
I think you need to register with disability services. Under the ADA they have to make reasonable accommodations for you. Finding away for you to sit for part of your lab IS a reasonable accomodation. They sell tall stools just for that purpose. My dad was a chemist and he could stand or sit at his work station. Even if no one else has one they need to find a way to get you one. Don't take no for an answer. Have you had your iron and B12 checked? You may be anemic from the blood loss. That would make everything worse. Have you tried non narcotic pain meds? They make you a little less foggy. I like hyosciamine or dyscyclomine. They are more anti-spasmodics than pain pills but they really help with my gut pain.

I have a friend who works for Segway. You should get one of those so you just have to stand instead of walk lol. But I bet they are expensive. How about a scooter?
26 Year old married female law student (last year!!). Diagnosed w/ CD 4 years ago, IBS for over 10 years before that, which was probably the CD. I am sort of lactose intollerant too but can handle anything cultured and do well w/ lactose pills and lactaid. For crohns I am currently on Pentasa 4 pills/4x day and hysociamine prn. I also have bad acid reflux and have been on PPI's since age 13. I have been through prilosec, prevacid, and nexium. Currently I am on Protonix in the morning and Zantac at night. I also take a birth control pill to allow some fun in my life.


Becoming undone
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Date Joined Jul 2007
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   Posted 8/22/2008 5:32 PM (GMT -7)   
I feel for you...heck, most lab benches were designed for the 6 ft tall person (I barely break 5 feet). I would have to be on me knees on top of the stool or standing on the stool for my chem classes (bio and chem major)...O-chem the worst. Yeah and I know about the fuzzy brain...However, I wasn't in active CD during that portion of my life like you...I used to cure brain blockages by either going for a run, or taking a nap...just made sure that the problem was the last thing I looked at before doing both...then let my mind wander...It seemed to help(hey, I passed p-chem), I would come back or wake up and it didn't seem so hard.

Oh, how many units (credits) are you taking? Do you have more than 2 labs (if you're in undergrad)?

I'm rooting for you...

Matthew
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   Posted 8/22/2008 5:58 PM (GMT -7)   
See if you can find someone to accomodate your specific needs, discretely. No need letting the whole campus know, but your instructors should.
And I totally agree with what Heidi said!

Sincerely,
Matthew

LMills
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Date Joined Apr 2008
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   Posted 8/22/2008 6:14 PM (GMT -7)   
I'm in the process of registering with disability services. The woman there was really nice, but she said I may need more documentation to be approved(I had all my hospital bills, doctor notes, blood transfusion papers, even my colonoscopy/endoscopy pictures hah). I suppose I just need to call them and see what is going on...I really need their help with this because my painkillers make my mind and vision so so blurry.
And I am anemic. Pretty severely actually. I've already had to be given two transfusions because of blood loss these past two months. The reason I can't start on the immunosuppressant medication right now is because of that. My doctor has to check my blood in September to see how things are in that respect. I will have to look into the anti-spasmodics...I think they would help too.
I only have a chemistry lab at the moment thank goodness. Overall I'm taking 13 credit hours. I was going to get a botany class in there, but at this rate my math and physics are going to take a lot of work(not that I mind..I like them a lot) and my elective is iffy so who knows?
Thank you guys for your responses...they're really helpful actually and I will definitely be taking them to heart! I can't spend the whole semester on painkillers or it will be wasted I think. No point in doing well if I can't even remember it. I really want to know these things..
20 years old, Diagnosed with severe Crohn's and colitis in May of 2008.
Currently taking:
Prednisone, pentasa, alinia, bentyl, prilosec, tandem plus, and the occasional ultracet
Surgery for ectopic pregnancy(very possibly due to Crohn's inflammation) in July of 2008.
Due to start Imuran September 17 depending on blood results.


Becoming undone
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Date Joined Jul 2007
Total Posts : 927
   Posted 8/24/2008 10:52 AM (GMT -7)   
Chemistry, Physics, and Math...in one semester!(It appears that you also have two labs as well...). Well, I did some of that crazy stuff too...probably rotted out my guts from all the coffee...(yeah, I was the masochist who thought that 21 units would be cool, and 4 lab classes weren't so bad...and hey, what does it matter if I fall asleep in pathogenic bacteriology, it's not going to hurt anyone, right?...haha)

Well here's hoping you stay sane, and get the help you need. I wouldn't realize I needed help until mid terms or later...when everything was due at once and they all assigned ridiculously hard and insane work. It seems that you are realizing that you need help earlier...oh, take advantage of any tutoring class or group, etc offered for any of your classes, even if your work seems easy now, that way, you make friends that can help when you need it later...or someone to help get notes from when you are not feeling well and can't make it to class...well you probably already know this...I'm still rooting for you.

So how's your weekend going. Get any downtime?

LMills
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Date Joined Apr 2008
Total Posts : 1753
   Posted 8/24/2008 6:24 PM (GMT -7)   
Just one lab thank goodness. Physics somehow didn't have one this semester. They're all the basics though so..I'm in them to get my feet wet while I recover so hopefully next semester I'll be well and able to get into the heavier things. I'm not sure how you survived all of what you just described..frankly I am in awe. That sounds like a medical student's regular semester! 4 labs though...seriously? What on earth were you taking??

I'm just working on getting everything done as soon as it's assigned for now to prevent the unnecessary stress of everything having piled up, being due the next day, and all night cramming. Oh college routine hah..

The weekend went well though I think thank you for asking :) And yours? I slept and got my homework done which is exactly what I wanted :) Although it was definitely a cheat weekend as far as food goes so I'm starting to get the punishment for being too risky with it. There is definitely something going on in the mid-left quadrant. God I hope there isn't an obstruction or something. I HAVE to be able to be mobile tomorrow(excess financial aid disbursement finally!) Lesson learned hopefully...it's soup, popsicles, and crackers for the rest of the week.
20 years old, Diagnosed with severe Crohn's and colitis in May of 2008.
Currently taking:
Prednisone, pentasa, alinia, bentyl, prilosec, tandem plus, and the occasional ultracet
Surgery for ectopic pregnancy(very possibly due to Crohn's inflammation) in July of 2008.
Due to start Imuran September 17 depending on blood results.

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