Thanks so much for all the replies... It is definetly encouraging to know that so many people care no matter what they are going through. The problems that we face everyday with this disease is depressing, because it is something most take for granted everyday.. I used to love to eat, exercise, take long sunday afternoon drives, and for the most part just live. Now i see people that are completely healthy and running around or just being free from c/d and it makes me want to smack them.. ha ha just kidding!!! I have enough problems keeping up with my one year old and wife. It just seems so tragic that one day you are running the general's mile and the next you can't go 20 feet further than your bathroom. My family is the main reason that I am fighting like hell to make it through this. If it wasn't for them I would have drowned myself in my own toilet by now.. When i was first dx'd with this disease i was posting almost everyday on this forum under gimike.... if anyone remembers me yes Im still alive.. I was truely a mess back then.