This is the reaction we all have after realizing our illness will be with us for life. I've actually had docs play down the CD just so they won't upset me. A little late for that..
I was origionally dxed with UC, so I figured if I got worse or failed to get remission, I always had surgery as a last resort & I could be rid of my illness. Then I was told I had CD roughly 1.5 years later Not a happy time in my life, worse because at that time, my roomate was going back to Maryland & I would soon be totally alone. Alone with this crap which was devestating my life at the time. I knew it was a life sentence. So now I had to go through the whole stages of grief thing again that I had just been through with the UC label.
However, while I still have CD related problems, I don't have frequent flares anymore & I've been off steroids for over 13 years approx.
BTW, I've had this most of my adult life & I'm now 46 years of age..