Yes, I feel that way all the time. I'm 33 yrs. old, no children and never been married. I think if I can't deal with this illness how can I expect anyone else to. I also have bounced around with feeling good and flares. I haven't had any relief longer then about 4 months in the past 6 years.
My friend, who is a nurse, thinks that I'm silly for thinking this. She says that I have so much more to offer then Crohn's and if any guy can't see past that then he's not worth it anyway! It's nice to hear that from her! I have seen a therapist and he says the same thing. It's good to talk out these issues with someone who is on the outside looking in. They can give you different prespective.
Hang in there!
This is howecr, Thank you all for your replys. and sooo fast wow.
I am seing a theripist, assigned by my insurance, No I guess he is a shrink. you know I went into his office fill out a bunch of questionairs, then a woman (dont know her position) came in and asked me a bunch of questions about my answers. Then the DOCTOR came in with 2 scripts already written Busprone and Ambian. and told me I needed to get a job... I was floored! I have been figing with Disibility for 2 years turned down twice. waiting on a hearing, I tried to explain that yes I would love to have a job. (something to look forward too) but keeping anykind of job full or part time. who what to hire someone who can work MAYBE 4 weeks at a time.. It makes me sooo ANGRY I have to fight to the point where I am an inch away from loosing my home. while the idiot across the street get paid disibility every month because he has Agult ADD and can play well with others.. Sorry I digress who nother thread there LOL.. My insurance wont pay for an actual theripist. I guess thats how I ened up here. I was looking for somewhere to go and talk to people in person. I have gotten all but agoraphobic. Sometime I have panic attacks just at the thought of leaving the house.. and it scares me to death, Because if there is a man out there willing to see ME not my illnesses how am I going to find him. I just want to go to bed somenight and have someone hold me all night, kiss the tip of my nose and tell me Im beautiful evenwhen I first wake up... WoW I read to many romance novels LOL THANK YOU ALL for letting me vent
I just want to say thank you ALL...
I was having a pretty bad day yesterday. My kids were gone over Christmas so I spent the holidays here at home alone... I have read EVERYTHING all of you wrote and for what ever reason ( I wont question) I feel much better.. I know I am lucky I have not had a MAJOR Flair in a very long time.. Mostly I just feel like I have a bad case of the flu most of the time.. ( I can live with that).
I would love to find a support group with real people. But I live in a tiny town in Iowa. I have not been able to find one very close... I will keep this site up so maybe someday I can help someone get though a night. Like you guys did me...