first, I apologize for "disappearing" the way I did.. I had so much hit me all at once.. my very best friend, and sister by choice of 13 years ended up hospitalized,, and in ICU on valentines day.. we believe she suffered a stroke, but because she never stablized enough to move her to have an MRI done, we're not certain.. she was on a ventilator the entire time, but despite 100% oxygen, remained unable to get her O2 much above 88% .. while she opened her eyes, clearly recognizing us, and sometimes responding to us with different movements and expressions, she didn't improve, and the decision was made to remove the ventilator and let her pass peacefully.. which she did last Saturday evening, surrounded by family and her dearest friends, myself included. I am trying not to let the selfish, human side of me that just wants her back show too much.. but its hard.. very hard..I saw her a couple of days before she went into the hospital, and that conversation is ever present in my mind.. I am relieved she is no longer in all the horrible pain that consumed her body day in and day out, but I miss her so desperately and just cant stand how different my world is without her.. im sorry for babbling.. thank u for listening
Okay, I have an update on my medical stuff.. I got a letter in the mail from the gastro doc the other day.. it says my colonoscopy was normal (which they told me the day I had it done) but the endoscopy shows I have gastritis - inflammation in my stomach.. honestly, when I read that, my first thought was "of COURSE my stomach was irritated!! After that prep, who's wouldnt be?!" I follow up with my primary doc later this week-- the 4th I think.. and the gastro wants me to call and make an appt with him in 2-7 weeks (thats what the letter said.. 2-7 weeks.. for what im not sure) some good news, Ive gained back about 6 lbs I think thanks to all the ensure i was drinking.. but, because of the cost, it isnt something I can continue with.. nearly $8.00 for six is just too expensive for my budget when I'm drinking 3 a day.. I'll see what my doc says about it - if there are alternatives.. I'm relieved its not crohns, but I'm still very concerned about what IS going on with me..
I really hope everyone's doing well- as well as they can be.. I'll try and spend some time getting caught up on things.. and if anyone knows more details about gastritis, I'd be most appreciative to have the information.. it seems relatively easy to treat, but I cant find whether or not its an ongoing or progressive type thing?? again, thanks to everyone for listening, and im sorry for going so far off topic..
Degenerative Disc Disease of Lumbar spine since 2002, Fusion w/hardware L3-4, L4-5, L5-S1 on 8-11-04, Fibromyalgia, Spinal Stenosis lumbar and cervical.. Possible Crohns (will know more 2-18-09) Chronic depression