Thanks to all of you who responded. Sometimes in life, we just have to accept what is and go with it. Since my company retired me on disability, I can pretty much take it easy if I want to. My GI told me to apply & I really do believe he had something to do with getting it pushed through due to the fact that I had my phone interview with SS 1/31/06, and while I was in the hospital recovering from heart surgery, my Jim brought me the letter from SS stating I had been approved. I guess they felt my case was serious enough, but I have been told it is unheard to get approved that quickly. My GI told me he came on strong because if he couldnt get me away from the stress from my job, I was going to die. I try not to worry about things, like money, weight, and arthritis, but sometimes it just gets me down, even though I know there are people out there who have worse things to deal with than I do. I was in nursing and used to take care of people like me, an it is no fun being on the dependent side of this thing. I have tried the Depends route when I have to go out, but when there is an accident, the smell, and burning skin, make for a very quick trip to get home and shower. I would rather stay home than go through that. Thanks for caring enough to write. I would like to hear your stories and your challenges. We are all in this together. Until the next time-bless you.
Thanks Randy-you are right about heart surgery causing depression and even terrible mood swings. I dont know why doctors dont tell these things to patients, so if they or their family members notice a personality change, it can be addressed immediatley. I was like another person, and if my mate had not been the loving man that he is, I dont know what would have happened. Having been in nursing myself, I knew something was wrong and I went to my cardiologist, & the cardiovascular thoraic surgeon and begged for help. I was just blown off & told it would take "time" & this was normal. Finally after almost a year, I changed family doctors, and on the very first visit, he gave me a name for the disorder, and even a diagnosis code for it. He also went on the net and copied a description of what was happening to me. He literally saved my life. We tried different antidepressants, all of which caused weight gain, but now I am on Cymbalta only and it has really helped with the depression. However, my training in nursing let me understand that a "pill" is not a cure all, and with the other issues I have, I still get down sometimes but NOTHING like before. I practice biofeedback on my own, and try to be very proactive in my physical & mental health, so I guess I can safely say things are better overall. It is just nice to share with others who have been down the CD road to vent to, not expecting a cure but just support. Thank you so much for caring to email back. That means a lot. Have a great week. Fran