Post Edited (Rider Fan) : 5/21/2009 12:11:32 PM (GMT-6)
Hi Rider Fan,
Counselling has been suggested to me here before. ( Do I really sound that bad?). I may have indicated prior that counselling is just not for me. I'm sure it works for some and I'm not knocking it. For me, it's the answers that I can't get that cause my anxiety. Counselling is not going to give me the answers I would like. Some may say that the answers I would like to get are unrealistic and that I need to be more realistic. For me I would just like to continue to get a better grasp on the understanding of this disease. Sometimes i read some just awful stories here and I start to worry. Then other times I read some good things and feel more postive. I guess I just don't know what to think about it all at times.
Thanks to everyone that replied.
BOY oh BOY.......I really have to reassess. Everytime I post it seems I come off like a loon. I know that it seems like I'm depressed and down and negative etc. I'm actually a very positive person. It just never shows here. Mike really says it all, "For some this disease destroys their life, and for others just a pain". My reaction to it all to me is quite logical. I'm somewhat at a loss because I don't know which way it's going to be for my kid. I hope you all don't think I'm a basket case. THis isn't about me, I'm not looking for sympathy or pity. I'm just a regular Dad that's worried.
Thanks LM and CP,
I appreciate the kind words, but honestly, although it might seem like it, I'm not soliciting any pats on the back. To sum it up for me, we all have an achilles heal. In my case, it drives me around the bend when I have to live in suspense. That's the way this disease is. You're left wondering what's lurking around the corner. In December, I thought my daughter was doing extremely well, then whamo she's in the Hospital. On the bright side, I've come to think that being on only Pentasa for two years was like being med free. So if she did that well for that long, then maybe now that she is on something much more effective, the oulook will be much better. There how's that for a positive attitude!! Thanks again for your caring replies.
You echo my sentiments exactly. There are some insightful people here, and I really respect the imput I get here from everyone. If I didn't I wouldn't be such a frequent visitor here.
As far as my daughter's involvement goes. We don't discuss the time I spend researching her disease. I don't want to make her neurotic by "smothering" her as you say with your friend. Quite frankly, she's just not interested in learning about this disease. If she's feeling well, she prefers to dwell on being a normal teen, minding her school work, her sport and the incessant texting this generation does.
I'm surprised when I re-read my posts sometimes that they have this underlying negativity, that has everyone recommending couselling for me. I'm going to really try to get rid of that tone.
A thousand times Thank-You for your post. You're the first one that's percieved me that way. I understand and appreciate the suggestions for counselling, but one of the reasons that I always say it's not for me, is because I don't really see myself as reacting unreasonably. Thanks again for seeing through things.