So i had surgery on march 6, 2009 and woke up in the morning and felt great and the doctor said i would be home in 3-4 days, later that night i started to not feel so good turns out my surgeon clipped my colon during surgery so i was immedetly rushed back into surgery where they took about a foot of intestine and part of my colon out. Because of this i now have to wear an ostomey bag and i hate every part of it. Then i was in the hospital for anohter two weeks after the second surgery. I was supposed to go back to work in early april but i was out until early June, all without getting a paycheck from work. (i had not workd there long enough for disability). Then in early june i started to get fistulas along my scar it started out with one and know is up to five with another one i believe forming. I am in so much pain every day! i have been taking diluadid pills but even they dont seem to touch the pain. because of all of this and the fact i have a beautiful wife and a child who just turned 1, whom i can barely help do anything i feel like i am in a black hole of depression. I was always one of those happy go lucky people who went out of his way to make sure other people felt good too. Now i cry a lot becasue i feel so weak and helpless. they put me on prozac but i have been taking it for about 2 1/2 months and i still feel like crap. I dont smile and have a hard time laughing at anything. i am going to try and go see a psychologist to get my mind working again. I have to see my surgeon every so often to see when i will be able to under go another surgery to reverse my ostomy. every time i see him i want to kick him so hard because it was his mistake that made me like this.
Anyway just needed to vent..... Good luck and God bless to all!!!
Crohn's since June 2005
Relapse/flare up since Oct. 2007
Been on Pentasa, Asocol. Prednisone, Entocort, Imuran, Protonix, various anxiety meds, painkillers
Humira for 1 month from July 2008-Aug 2008 then contracted histoplasmosis and was in hospital for 11 days in Aug. 2008
Surgery scheduled for March 6th 2009