.....Thanks for the posts ...this has sure been hades around hear..yep remember i had lost partial hearing and i had full hearing in my right ear due to over use
of intravenous vancomycin for pyodermaa that caused deafness but also when had my first seizure i came out of it not knowing what happened firstly ..not
hearing now at all..reading lips n learning sign that is a task but i have to adapt ...very hard on the heart n mind..soul that i cannot hear ppl i love especially
their voices nor any noise..feel trapped n their is like .....i call it atmosphere thats the best way ican really explain noise in head constantly when awake....
dead air rushing thru my head aggravating it is.As for cait she is back with him i did very nicely tell jesse i wll not have cait abused physically or emotionally
and he knows i will not hesitate to intervene..somehow i dont think it is going to last cait had to mature alot a whole lot during all of this and he is not even close in his
maturity level his mother does coddle to him imho n but thats her issue .....mine is to be there for cait....
C2...i cannot begin to tell you how just how lonely this total hearing loss is..i know peeps are trying i see the frustration when they cannot get something across to me
told them all well ya think yer frustrated lol SO am i very n scared...i had forgotten basic things and how to do things when seizure hit me i guess it was a goodin lol
...just what does happen to us when we start to love n he was her first love she told me...
I DO know she will see this but when is what worries me and i agree i cannot telll her it is a forbidden but in have had to be honest n tell her i cannot deal with him
and nothing had better happen againl...i have to trust her judgement i guess and just continue to be her backup knowing i have taught her morals and how woman or men ARE not to be treated.
i really have a theory about
this n i think cait ran back to him for comfort ....AND a sense of some kinda screwed up thinking she she has that he is gonna be there thru all
maybe i am wrong i dont know its that i worry so about
her...like i said she really had to grow up quick do all that i had been doing in running home ect....she is the caretaker to a large part n that
bothers me i feel like i am a burden at times..my son came n stayed til i got out of hospital but he has gone back to alberta now with his family and his job so it all rests on her more less..then school work you
get picture....i miss the old me n the noise believe it or not lol....but i can honestly say sometimes when her n i go at it whew maybe its a good thing for a bit i cant hear..
dang i just wish it could all go back to then but i know i have the strength to carry on once again..i do so with my friends at side...thanks for always being there you guys i do appreciate it more
than u will ever know.......helps to cry just a lil bit ya know.........luvs to all ......lyn
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