I need some advise on how to cope and deal with depression
Before i was diagnosed i lived the bachelor life; out partying all the time, meeting girls, not caring about anything or who i hurt, no wories, ect ect...i was even pretty good looking
I was originally diagnosed with crohn's a few years ago, at the time i didnt worry about it too much, i just went on living my life as i always had (drinking, partying, having fun ect) and even started a relationship with a woman (we will call her Katie), who i did not have alot of feelings for at first, however she was very supportive and cheered me up whenever i was down, so i stuck with her (it was probably a relationship i shouldnt have been in, given her circumstances). In the past couple years i had calmed down, laying off the booze and taking life more serious and getting more serious with Katie, however thats when things started to go downhill. In the past couple years i have started to have less energy, losing wieght, alot of thoughts and worries, and even concerned about death more and started to develope alot of feelings for Katie (things between her and i where really going good, i started to fall for her and her for me), however instead of things getting better they just got worse.
In the past year, although i have still been laying of the booze and eating healthy, things just kept going downhill, the weight loss continued (i look like a skeleton now), i have tonnes of thoughts and worries, i cant sleep, Katie grew very distant from me and just lately quit seeing or talking to me, i am constantly thinking of Katie (what she is doing, who she is doing it with, ect...i think she may have actually got back with her ex...it probably doesnt help that i have a pretty boring job and my imagination runs wild all day) it is driving me crazy i now realize how much i depended on her and how many feelings i actually had for her, i dont know what to do, i feel so depressed.
How do i get back to the guy i was before i was diagnosed? i want to live that bachelor life again.....Please help
Post Edited (tiredguy) : 2/11/2010 3:23:36 PM (GMT-7)