so seeing my GI in Edmonton on Thursday made me realize things could be worse and also things could be a whole lot better.
My appt. went fairly well - He took me off of the Imuran (Azathioprine) - he said he thinks it may be causing me to be anemic (very low hemagloben). I have been on the Imuran as long as I have been on the Remicade - for about
a year. He said there is nothing for the frequent borborygmi that I am experiencing - but said in due time that should subside if and when I begin to feel BETTER.
Gotta get some blood work done and 2 iron infusions, & go back to see him in 3 mths.
I'm Still having accidents, still averaging between 10-15 movements a day. Taking codine regularly, and still on Remicade mthly.
Suffering from depression ... break down of marriage, going thru divorce. Sad and Alone.
Tomorrow is Sunday - and maybe I will go to church. I am not a religious person. But I keep telling myself .... "faith ... gotta have faith" that things WILL get better.
It seems lately all that matters to me now is finding love again & being loved for who i am.
And I feel the need to pray for that .... and of course my health too.
Hope you all are doing well!
Like they say: "Life isn't always a party but we are here so we might as well dance together."
peace & good health to all.
33 yr. old female CANADIAN
dx. with UC October 1998
had temp j-pouch: '98-'99
disease free & back to norm: '99-'07
dx. with CD March 2009
Currently taking: Remicade mthly
In my next life: I want to be a big beautiful oak tree or something like that... so I can live off of just sunshine and water.
Post Edited (Sofee) : 8/28/2010 8:16:23 PM (GMT-6)