Post Edited (MMMNAVY) : 11/18/2007 4:42:51 PM (GMT-7)
Actually, this particular professor knows more than any other professor what I've been going through. When I went in there to talk to her, I just broke down. I was a mess that day (the day before the scopes). I looked like crap with all those bruises everywhere, my eyes full of doom, getting all skinny. I sort of filled her in. She was very sympathetic, and even offered to take me to the hospital the next day (I started laughing; I was like, no way are you going to witness any crapping-of-the-pants)! I was definitely not trying to play the sympathy card for an extra half a point, so in a way I'm glad she didn't turn around and give me the pass. I want to be the best doctor I can be, and if that means I have to re-learn the intricacies of respiratory epithelium and liver cells, hey...it'll just make me a better doc.
I just wish I knew how to get this under control so I could focus on being a doc rather than being a patient!!!
As usual, you guys bring me to my knees with your empathy and kindness...have any of you ever thought about partnering with your community's medical school to teach these young 'uns a little bit about being sick? You guys would be amazing mentors. Seriously. They would have so much to learn from you.
I was poking around another forum I frequent, one full of medical students, and found myself getting really depressed. There are people making themselves sick over the fact that they got a B on some exam and - gasp - is this going to affect their chances of getting a good orthopedic surgery residency?! Or, even better - what's the best way to "get ahead" for head/neck anatomy during Thanksgiving break?
I shouldn't be belittling others' troubles; I should know better than that by now. I think I just get frustrated that the biggest concern for some people is a stupid test score. Then again, it could definitely be argued by most people around the world that my moaning and groaning about being a sick med student is ridiculous as well, given the fact that a) I have the opportunity to get medical care and b) I have the opportunity to get an education in the first place.
Okay, sorry for the tangent.
P.S. I still do not have ANY diagnosis, by the way...all they tell me for sure is "it's not IBS." Which is funny. Sort of.
hang in there sarita~ i wish i could write more but am out of spoonage today however I wanted to let you know how much of an inspiration you are to me. I am sorry that you didn't pass by .5. Gurl you may have to retake that class but atleast you did it this qtr and didn't drop! I know it's frustrating but I too believe that you will be an awesome doc! I also get sick in the stomach listening to med students talk about those darn grades. I wish society didn't place such an empathsis on the grades. They are important, BUT there is much to be said about skills such as bedside manners and listening.
Thanks, friends. I am a little better emotionally in large part due to reading your posts. It gives me a much-needed confidence boost.
I just have to keep reminding myself about last week. I volunteered at a homeless shelter to do physical exams on acute patients. My first patient was pretty sick. Wheezing, crackly lungs, history of asthma. A third-year student on my team (who must obviously have a stellar GPA, lol) said he wanted to rule out gastroenteritis in the patient! He totally neglected to take her temperature/blood pressure/etc. (a lot of med students will say things like, "Well, that's what the medical assistant is for" - I'm like, "DUDE, we're at a homeless shelter. We don't have any medical assistants!") So I took her temp and then immediately made the diagnosis of pneumonia. She would've had to go to the ER but I gave her a breathing treatment and she improved dramatically. The third-year student was just standing there like, "Hmm...wow, I never would have thought about pneumonia..." Jeez louise.
So there is hope after all, even for a student who failed histology. LOL.