when i was 13 i lost my sister to cf. my sister and my best friend. she was only 9. the same day of her death 2 yrs following this we find out my youngest brother is a diabetic type 1 then a year later still the same day my uncle dies in a car accident by a drunk driver then 2 yrs ago the same day once again i miscarry. the 30th of oct is the worst day and the most unlikiest day in our lives. you have to think(it took me to get to this thought some major counsling and major time)that your friend who you just lost isnt fighting the "cf monster" any longer. he/she is out of pain. God said the same thing when he took my sister and uncle..."i cant let them suffer any longer". i dont know much about your case and i dont know much about your story. but i am very very familiar with cf. i just found out about 3 months ago that i have cf as well. and you would think with me being diagnoised late and all that i would have a slightly way milder case however its that simple. ive lost 40 lbs now going thru my second miscarriage and still not able to find the right eneyme. so now there talking about g tubes feb 14th will be my last day im ALLOWED to work. i have a beautiful 2 yr and my case is worseing every week. i am scared of leaving my son. but when you have a deadly disease liek all of us do you cant think about dying. live life one day at time. enjoy life. be that butterfly you were made to be. my dad told me its funny (me and my sister) have this really bad disease but yet we are the kindest smartest happiest people he has ever known. dont dwell on the past but live the past. did your friend take care of his/her self? if not take care of yourself that much more. if your afraid to get close fine take babysteps. one day the pain wont be so much and you can live again but until your fully let your friend go and let them live in gods hanf(sorry im not religious but spiritual) you are putting yourself in more misery. if you dont get close your gonna miss out on some really special unique people. you never know when its your time and when its your time u cant stop it. enjoy what time you have it!!
life is precious and devasting but for every tear and story we live its what makes us who we are!!
i wish ya luck,