I can relate. The weight gain really gets to me as well; I was off my bipolar meds for a whole year, but my depressive episodes left me with no choice but to get back on the meds.
I am going to do my best to eat as healthy as possible, and I am going to exercise. New Year's resolution; and I started yesterday. I did chose a mood stabilizer that doesn't really cause weight gain, or so I have read. I would definitely explore some more options, it would be great if there is an anitdepressant out there that at least has less chance of causing the weight gain. I know there are definitely ones out there that are much worse than others. Not sure if you want to share, but which medication are you on? Anytime I want to know about side effects, I post about the med that I'm on and ask how it's affected people. Then everyone posts about their experiences and it really shows me which side effects occur the most.
We have a lot in common. I was on Effexor for about 2 years I think. It definitely helped with the anxiety and the depression. But I'm not sure about the weight gain. It's kind of hard for me to tell though, cause my weight gain started with Zyprexa-40 lbs-I'm still about 30 pounds over weight, which isn't tooo bad, but it could be better...Anyway...I would say if you gain weight with it, you may want to try something else. Like I said, Wellbutrin is better. I also did very well with Wellbutrin; it helped the anxiety and depression as well.
I also worked in 4 call centers over 5 years. The stress in that environment was enough to almost put me over the edge. I had to make the decision to leave them and never go back. Call centers pay very well (at least where I am they do) but it's for a reason: the stress. It wasn't just the customers that stressed me out, a lot of it was the expectations, meeting numbers, the pressure of that...managers-It was very damaging to my mental health.
Anyway, my advice to you to try and stay feeling well and motivated so that you can work out, eat right to manage the weight...Try and cope your way through the depression. Forgive me if you already do these things...But what I mean is, when we are depressed it's very hard to have energy, to "do" anything. Sometimes though, I find if I just take things hour by hour, make small goals (have a shower, if things are bothering me vent to HW or to a friend...write in my journal, watch a movie, go for a walk)...I find the depression takes my focus away from the things that could me making me feel better. The only thing I can focus on when I'm depressed is how depressed I am, and how I can't do anything. It's very hard to get my mind around that, but when I do, sometimes I can feel better-even if it's only for a few hours. To me that is victory! I don't work out, I wish I did...maybe I will someday, but do you feel better after you work out? Maybe that can be your motivation to work out when you're feeling down-that it will lift your depression (again even if only for a little while).
What you said about mood stabilizers is so true. Most of them are awful-zombie effect. That was the main reason I went off them. They are just horrible meds. The one I'm on now is actually the only one that I could tolerate. I don't feel tired from it at all.
Anyway, sorry to go on and on. Hope you are well today.
How are you? Someone suggested Topamax to me once. What is it prescribed for and how does it feel....???
Love to know more,
I am feeling a bit depressed today; I am dreading some upcoming social gatherings and outings. My anxiety really kicks in when I have to be around people. So, it is triggering some depression for sure.
I actually am in college for Medical Office Assistant. As I mentioned, I had to stop working in the call centers, so I decided to start a whole new career path. I am really loving it. I am fascinated with health matters, so this really suits me. I would absolutely love nothing more than to work for a psychiatrist or counsellor when I am finished. I am off school for the holidays-return January 2nd, so I am trying to enjoy this break. Today, I have a quiet house to myself and I am loving that.
So back to this whole meds stuff: I hated Zyprexa b/c it honestly made me gain at least 40 lbs. I remember a thread in the bipolar forum some months back, and people posted that they too all gained anywhere from 20 to 60 pounds from it. One thing I know for sure Zyprexa is huge for weight gain. I did feel better with it, but it wasn't worth it. It's not terrible to want to balance your weight gain with your depression & the meds. I feel the same way. As long as I do make sure I am looking after my mental health first. Then I can try to limit the weight gain with what I know from certain meds and with my pdoc's advice. I also see you've inquired about Topamax. There's another med that gave me the whole zombie effect...so that's what I didn't like about that. In some cases it does involve weight loss; weight gain as far as I know is not a side effect of that med. However, it is used as a mood stabilizer...You definitely need to consider which meds are the best for your depression. I have heard of a lot of people taking mood stabilizers with major/clinical depression recently. It's so interesting b/c depression and some forms of bipolar are so closely related. I started out with being dx'd as having depression; but then it changed to BP II.
I also take clonazepam for when I have panic attacks. It works pretty well.
Thank you for your well wishes for the holidays; right back 'atchya. I hope you can find some sort of balance with all that is stressful to you in your life and with your depression. It's all so hard, I know. I really believe though that when we're struggling it helps to try and put our focus on something else. I am here anytime for you and for all our HW members. It's great to have this break from school so I can keep posted on HW.
Have a great day; do something nice for yourself as a reward for working so hard at your healing.
Know exactly what u mean.... However it helps your mind. Write anytime...
Really - Actually when I was last on the Effexor I did feel irritable sometimes, but then people were making me angry and doing things - it was at work and sometimes people try my patience. However I noticed a lifting of spirits and also almost no anxiety. It seemed to work for me after 8 weeks. If he has been on it since July then it should be working - if it is not maybe he needs more or less - I take 75mg - but some people take 120mg and I have heard that meds need to be adjusted. I have no idea about the male and female thing , however it seems if you read the forum that everyone has a different body chemistry and some things work for some that do not work for others. I know people that do not gain weight on any of these pills and then others (like me) that gain - who can explain it? Your friend needs to see the doctor or specialist and re-evaluate the treatment - Effexor is not cheap so if it is making someone worse then why bother? He may need another drug treatment altogether for his problems - I really cannot say - but if something is not working I would try something else. When I went off the Effexor in March - I felt sick for a week, but then I was fine - there is a withdrawal period. I hope he finds something else.
I will make it out tonight as it is just across the street and not too threatening. Sometimes the travel time gets me down. I do not have a car, but I do drive and I find commuting tiring at times. Sometimes I just want to protect myself from things too eh? I hope you will make it out too.....
Happy New Year and write soon
Hi Getting By
I was tired and napped for several hours today.... I have to work in the morning so I am glad. I hope you feel well. Write when u can.
How was your day? I hope it went well. Mine was busy and I am so tired. I was supposed to go to the gym, but I just came home - guess it will be on Sat and Sun this week.... I felt anxious this am
Hope everybody is well and settled....
I hope that you had a wonderful day. Don't worry if you can't make it to the gym today. Like you said, you can go Saturday and Sunday. It is great that you are feeling good about work. I am so happy for you. I wish I could work too. But I have fibromyalgia too and haven't been able to work for years. I know that being able to hold a job would be good for my self esteem. Sometimes I think about part time, it is just that I never know if I will wake up feeling good from one day to the next.
Let us know how you are doing when you get the chance.
Fibomyalgia is very painful ---- Most people cannot work - some people have advised me that I cannot either - the trouble is that I cannot afford not to - I applied for disability, but was assessed as someone that can handle work with the right treatment (drugs).... I do not necessarily agree with this, but such is life... I would love more time to take care of myself, lose weight and go to the gym etc... Maybe someday
You must do what your Doctor recommends so if it is recommended that you cannot work then you cannot. Do u have hobbies? Now that helps self esteem as work does not always.
Well thanks for the encouraging words and I hope you have a great night.
I went through the whole disability thing but still got denied at the end because I was seeing a physicians assistant instead of a real doctor at the time. I didn't realize that there was that much of a difference or that they would deny me. I have an md now so I will start all over again.
I like to paint with acrylics, wood burn, make jewelry and work with rocks. I have a rock saw and I slice and shape stones and try to make jewelry out of them. I have done some crosses and teardrop shapes. Where I am in Michigan we have Petoskey stones. They aren't real hard so they are easy to work with. It is actually coral from aabout 350 million years ago. They make cool jewelry and are pretty when they are polished.
I hope that you have a good nights rest so that you aren't tired tomorrow.