Please stop what you are doing and think about your daughter. I just met you and I don't want to lose you. Remember how it was such a coincidence about the book and the things that we both like. I am going to get a moderator to write some numbers down for you to call. You need to get help. You are a good person in a hard situation but you are trying the best that you can. I care about you. I WANT YOU TO BE OKAY.
Luv and hugs
Hi Getting There,
I am so glad that you wrote back, you had me scared there for a while. I never knew my dad either. He didn't care, he had kids all over the place. I have half brothers and sisters that I haven't even met.
I didn't drink for years either. I have a beer now and then, but take too much medication for anything more. My mother was an alcoholic too. That was one of the reasons that I didn't drink. I also didn't have kids because of her. Well it was my decision but, I was afraid I would turn out like her. She really neglected her kids bad when she drank. She would put them in a closet and tell them to stay there while she went to the bars. I didn't even know her when I was little because they put her into the mental hospital and took the kids away. Then she got out had me and my sister, then before my sister was born she got put back in the hospital and my sister and I met for the first time back in 1993. We were in our thirties by then.
I don't want them to take your little girl away from you. You would be devastated Dor. So keep trying to hang in there. Do you want to move back by your ex? Would it make it easier for you being you have fibro? Does he help you out financially? I sure hope so.
Do you see a therapist? I see a psychiatrist and psycologist. The psychiatrist prescribes the meds, but the psycologist talks to me for an hour. She has helped me so much in this past year. It might help if you have somebody to talk to. They can be so encouraging, if they are good.
I hope you feel better. Remember I am here for you.
Luv and hugs,
Hi getting there,
I want to say good morning but I slept until the afternoon, so good afternoon.
I hope that you are feeling better today. I know this is a difficult time for you right now. But as Shy said, come here to talk anytime. I am on and off a lot, so I should be able to respond if you want.
Also as Shy said, you are just finding a way to cope, that is natural. I feel that I have done the same thing, just trying to feel better, but I am tired of being in a stupor from drugs and alcohol. I use to drink daily and take pain meds to try to feel better, I never took too many anti-depressants because I was afraid of running out. I know I would be in a mess if that happened. But I don't have a child like you do, she needs her mom. You are responsible for her wellbeing, and she depends on you for that. I know she loves her mom and wants her to be here for her. You are so special, I really like you a lot. And I want to be able to continue this friendship. We just have so much in common. It is kind of like we were meant to meet on here.
So keep posting and so will I. There are so many people here who understand. I know Shy does and she is such a wonderful person. She wants to be here for you too. So don't give up on us, we want to help you.
Have a great day hon, I hope you and your daughter can be together today and have some fun.
Thanks for thinking of me and bearing with me that night. Thanks for your words of encouragement and letting me know I am at a place where others have tread before so there is hope for me too. I really like you too and want continue to get to know you. I should have gone to CPR/ First Aid training Monday morn with the hope of getting back to work but I could not sleep, took meds for sleep and could not go. This makes me feel so bad. I dont want them to think that I am not trying.
I am on welfare and they expect you to look for work. Wednesday I see my psych so I will ask him to sign the work exemption form for me. I have a nice worker who does not pressure me but I think I have been trying to prove to myself that I can get back out there and function normally like I used to. I need to accept the reality of my condition and live one day at a time and forget about the unfulfilled dreams.
You are such a wonderful person, and I am so happy you are feeling better. Remember, one day at a time. It often takes time to get better, though we would like to see it happen much faster. But as each day comes, I pray that you see a little more light at the end of the tunnel.
You and your daughter will be fine, I just know. She loves her mom and depends on her and I know that you will be there. Keep your chin up as you prod through the rough spots, eventually they will get easier.
Good luck with your cpr training. I am sure that you will be able to pick that back up. I wish you luck at finding a job. Are you still thinking about moving? You had said that you might go to Canada. Which ever you decide, I am behind you 100% and am here for you whenever you need.