It sounds as if the medication had helped you....perhaps you and your doctor could try a different one that won't cause you to feel like a zombie and feel sick. I don't know how you would "fix the depression by yourself." By that, do you mean going to a therapist rather than taking medication? That could work, too, but if "by yourself" you literally mean by yourself, then I think it would fail and you would feel worse. That's just my 2 pennies. I say that because I have been depressed for many years and the thought of going it on my own would definitely not work for me. Perhaps you could try an SSRI rather than the anxiolytic medication you were taking.
cervical fusion 2006, with great result
L4-5 surgery with cages, plates, and screws in 2005, I have continued pain
MEDS: Fentanyl patch, Norco, Celexa, trazodone, and Parafon Forte
Im going to smile like nothing is wrong, act like everything is perfect, and pretend its not hurting me.