Hi Getting There,
You are right, you have to stay in the present,(the now), and put the past behind you. You do what you can for now. I am sorry that you had to go to the hospital. I know you were trying so hard. Sometimes it takes some intervention or a change of some sort to be able to start fresh. And that is what you are doing now.
I hope that you will continue to post and let us know how you are doing. I hope that you are feeling better. I am glad that you are looking at the positive side of things. You will be okay. Just keep trying. You are in my thoughts and in my prayers.
Luv and hugs,