Levon, my words you have been through a lot. No wonder you feel the way you do. But do not dispair, you have a new job and a new place for you and your son.
These feelings that you are going through are normal. Especially after what you have been through. Please don't be hard on yourself, you are grieving the loss of your mother. And of course you wanted to be at her side, but you can't help that you weren't able to. So let that pass. You sound like you were close to her. She would want you to go on with life as you are doing.
I hope that this helped you a little. It is a hard time of year right now, everybody has been feeling a little down. But with help from us, you will feel better soon. You have come to a good place. We are here for you.
Carla and Karen,
Thanks so much for you encouragement. I've never felt more alone in my life.
"I was always looking outside myself for strength and confidence, but it comes from within.
It is there all the time." – Anna Freud
Major Depression, Anxiety/Panic Disorder, ADHD, Binge Eating Disorder, PTSD, Degenerative Disc Disease (post Fusion), Osteoarthritis, Fibromyalgia, Restless Leg Syndrome, Migraine Syndrome, Interstitial Cystitis, IBS, GERD, TMJ
I like your name. But I want you to look at your signature. That makes so much sense right now.
We are here for you so keep posting. You wont feel alone for long. There are a lot of wonderful people here who would love to correspond with you. You really have to focus hard on your accomplishments right now. Remember you are a wonderful person and a good provider for your son. Don't sell yourself short. You are doing the best you can. I think that you are a lot stronger than you realize. Be at peace with yourself. You are very special.
luv and hugs,
Im so sorry to hear about your mum. I cannot imagine the pain it must cause, being so young (ish! lol) myself. When you were diagnosed with unipolar, were you given any meds to come out with or a treatment plan? Grieving a hard process to go through, that I understand and I have personal experience of people who find it much harder to let go than others. Your name hits the nail right on the head. Take one day at a time and eventually you will get to where you are going.
Please talk whenever you need to
Major Depression, Anxiety/Panic Disorder, ADHD, PTSD
I am glad that your visit with your doctor went well. But she has made a very good point about you stopping smoking. If you have blood clots especially. It is too risky.