I am feeling really desperate, and need someone to talk to.
Recently diagnosed with clinical depression, put on new antidepressants Escitalopram, but also recently told that I may have an underactive thyroid. Apart from that had a heart attack nearly 6years ago that has left me crippled with angina.
Just recently my depression has really escalated, I am bursting into uncontrollable crying bouts two or three times a day, and then suddenly I am on top of the world, and am all smiley and happy. Its like being on an emotional roller coaster and is utterly exhausting.
I thought the depression was a result of the long term angina, and have recently been referred to see a Psychiatrist for further help. I am now waiting for psyciatric liason outpatients in late Feb. They changed my citalopram to escitalopram about
3 weeks ago, which doesn't seem to have made any improvement to how I am feeling. Then just last week I was told my last blood test has shown up an underactive thyroid, which can also cause depression.
Its got so I don't know which is the chicken and which is the egg, all I know is that I am feeling awful and keep having thoughts of how my husband would be better off without me. I have thought about
suicide, but not in any real detail. The depths of despair I am feeling when I am really low are scaring me, I don't know that I can trust myself any longer not to do something stupid when I am feeling like that.
I also don't know if my original depression is just getting worse, as life with this level of angina pain is awful, or if the new antidepressants are causing some sort of bi-polar reaction, or if it is all as a result of the hypothyroidism.
Anyone got any ideas? Help!
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