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Welcome to Healing Well and remember you come here whenever you need to vent or just talk. There is a wonderful group of very understanding people here that are very good listeners.
I agree with Getting There, first of all you are not a lazy person, this is just a part of the depression. So please don't beat yourself up over not being motivated. What you just had happen to your home is terrible and I also hope that when it thaws out that the damage is minimal.
Getting out and walking is a really good start to healing. And who knows, you might find a job while you are out. You never can tell, anyway it is good for you and it makes your opportunities much better.
This is such a hard time of the year right now. It is gloomy and the excitement of the holidays is over. I think we are all getting a little cabin fever in anticipation of springtime weather. I know that I am experiencing that right now. I really think that the forum keeps me going and I hope that it helps for you too. So feel free to jump in at any time. Hopefully we can help you with advise and I am sure that you can help others too.
Hi there and Welcome to HealingWell.
Its important to make yourself little goals to achieve each day or week. Thinking about you getting a job, one goal might be to buy a newspaper and find 5 jobs you could apply for. (Assuming your jobs are advertised in the paper like they are here in the UK). Then make a goal to apply for at least 5 jobs per week. Slowly build yourself up to getting interviews etc... Try not to think of it as: "Oh my god, I have to find some more money from somewhere. I have to get a job really soon" Break it down into 'baby steps' and you will get on much better. Think of it like this: Which is easier... eating a whole steak in one mouthful or cutting it into little bits and chewing it one bit at a time?
Sadsack: I am so sorry to hear about everything that is happening in your life right now. Dealing with depression is enough of a life changing event in itself. Now you have another tragic event in your life. Saying you must be "overwhelmed" probably doesn't even come close what you must be feeling.
I too have been dealing with this debilitating illness for many, many years now. I have friends from college (almost 20 years ago) and coworkers from when I worked about 10-12 years ago and they all remember me as a very self-motivated person who did anything and everything to get work and problems solved. No matter what got tossed at me, I handled it. I"m getting the impression that you were the same.
Thinking about everything you have in your plate now and comparing who you are now to the way you were before - to get things done, is probably making your stress level go sky high. Which in turn is going to make you even more depressed and even more angry with yourself. This is all a vicious circle where your valuable energy is being drained and making your depression so much worse.
Everyone here is right. Start with a part-time job for now. Perhaps if you could do something of benefit for others you might also feel better about yourself too. No matter how hard it is getting out it certainly is worth it when you get there and get going. Take baby steps! And don't keep comparing yourself to before. You need to give your body a chance to heal gradually. Also, perhaps this is your body's way of saying it was overworked before. Think of it as a "broken leg". You have to listen to your body and give it some time.
Okay...enough lecturing here. My thoughts and prayers will be with you and I hope somehow that everything works out with your house. I hope you keep posting. Everyone here is so caring and helpful. It truly helps to come post on your own and to be there and support others.