It must have been a really difficult decision to make, going back on the meds after 9 years. I think it was a really brave decision to make and I think you have done the right thing. At least you were able to recognise the fact that you neeed some help and you were brave ebough to reach out for it. I hope that the waiting list for you is not too long and that you get there soon. On the bright side, you know which meds work for you and you dont have to go through the 'experiementation' phase.
All the best
I know that it must be hard to go back on meds after such a long period without them.
I have been taking meds for what seems like forever. I had to go through many different ones until I found what worked for me. But believe me, it was worth it. I am actuallly happier than I have ever been in life. I hope you have what works for you.
Have a great day,