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These guys are right Katie, I would only add that I know you are worried about your father's addiction problem. And I can tell that you would like to help him being that you are so close. But you have to help yourself first. And that takes possibly meds and therapy. You have been through a lot and I think it would be easier to deal with with a little help.
You are in my thoughts and prayers,
luv and hugs,