To me Valentines is just another commercialized holiday now. It is a way for companies to make money. I understand how you feel about the proposal and all. Just save that as a good memory. I think it is sad how this holiday gets people down, just because things may not be going as expected at the particular moment. Please don't be sad. Remember all of us here love you. And will be thinking of you now and on valentines day.
Keep your faith Teresa, i just know that you can. You are such a strong person and I know that you can make it through this with our help.
Luv and hugs,
Oh Teresa, I really feel for you. I wish that you weren't feeling so bad right now. But let those tears come, it is healthy to cry and normal to feel sad. I pray that your dream will come true. Life is funny, you never know what is around the corner.
Funny thing when you said that you would like to wish everybody a happy valentine's day but you can't . Well do you realize when you said that, you just did?
We are here for you so remember that. Post whenever you feel the need. We are here to listen, and we will help you get through the hard days.
You have experienced something that not everybody gets to have, cherrish the memories.
There is a saying that 'time heals all wounds'. Hopefully for you and him. You can never tell what changes will happen in life. I lost my husband 7 years ago to cancer. I thought that I would never love again. But here seven years later, I got married. So there could be another just around the corner. Or as I said about time, it my heal his wounds too. So you never know.
Thanks so much shy. It is about 730pm and the evening is about done. No visitors or happy valentines day for me. I prayed all day for the chance to just see him today, thats all I want but I guess his this day like an anniversary is not worth anything. I cant believe that I have sat here this evening waiting and watching for him, I mean literally watched out the window for him. I just cant believe that he doesnt want to at least see me, I realize that the emotions are high when he sees me but unlike him, I yearn to see him, I dont think anyone in this world loves someone like I do this man and how sorry I am truly sorry!!!!!!!! I knew something was wrong between us the last time we were togethet because I could not do for him what I used to do, all i want is him.
I dont know what else to say but I love someone that I will never get over him like he has gotten over me, I will live a million years and never stop loving him. I am sorry I am rambling but I am so sad right now that I could die. Im going to celebrate this day with my Meiers Pink catawba.
So much for love and faith, right?
I wish you guys could understand how I feel and how very sorry I am that we are not together. To make things worse tonight, I found the rose petals and well....other things I had purchased for Valentines day.
I always leave my door open for him and the outside light on but maybe I should not anticipate him ever coming back, I cant even think about it right now.
I really need your prayers tonight because my miracle didnt happen, what else is new?
Post Edited (faithfully4you) : 2/14/2008 5:54:11 PM (GMT-7)
Its funny, I used to be really bothered about Valentines Day, having never been anything other than single, but now I just see it as another commercial holiday (As I think someone else mentioned). My theory is that if you cant be loving to your partner all year round, then whats the point of a 'holiday' where you put on false effort? Maybe im just skeptical
I agree with you Darren, some of these holidays are so commercialized. It takes the simple pleasure right out of it. And our expectations get raised to where it is a disappointment when it doesn't go as planned.
Faithful, I am going to go out on a limb here. You say that this man gives you this wonderful feeling and passion that others can't imagine. I say that this feeling and passion is you. Not him. You are the one experiencing this feeling and you are the one having the love. I can say that he may have done things that help made you feel so good, but I am also saying that this is you. I know that you love him and want to be with him, but I honestly feel that you can still feel that way by yourself. You carry it within you. I just want you to give yourself some credit and not depend on another person to feel good. Because actually another person cannot cause you to feel any certain way, that comes from within you. I think that you should have faith in yourself to be happy. I know that you can do this, you have the faith and you have the strength. It is a part of you. So give yourself a chance to be happy.
We are all so proud of you too. You have been working so hard and it shows in your posts.
Mochiah is right, you do have a gift of words. You seem to make everything so interesting to read. You are very wise and you have a subtle way of entering so much emotion into everything you write.
Keep up the wonderful work.
luv and hugs,