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faithfully4you
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   Posted 2/11/2008 12:07 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi everyone~
 
Just really down today, tired of seeing all these "lovey-dovey" commercials about giving jewelry to someone on Valentine's Day.  I do ok until I think about Valentine's day and all that I held in my hands but let slip through like they didnt even mean anything.  THEY DID!!!!!!  When I think of Valentine's day and the wonder of it I remember funny {setting our bedroom on fire and putting out some of the flames in the freezing snow!  Or my favorite which I continuely play in my head, the proposal that surprised me and and made me feel like I was floating.  I still think of the way he was checking his pockets of his coat to make sure it was still there, here I thought he was just skirming around like he sometimes did, the way he came over to me and kneeled down and said I want you to be my valentine for the rest of our lives.  I still remember the excitement and love for this man who was going to be my husband, now he will probably be some other person's.
 
There are no words to describe how I feel when I think about this day and how I wish it was over once again.
 
It is funny because Valentine's day was always happy for me and I was single many of them, I loved it because it represents Angels, hearts, and the colors that represent the day that for me reminds me to love those who love me.
 
This Valentine's day will go by with tears and a day alone without seeing the beauty of a day that was always important to me.
 
I am sure to b fighting depression rather hard that day.
Teresa
 
 
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   Posted 2/11/2008 1:59 PM (GMT -7)   

Hi Teresa,

To me Valentines is just another commercialized holiday now.  It is a way for companies to make money.  I understand how you feel about the proposal and all.  Just save that as a good memory.  I think it is sad how this holiday gets people down, just because things may not be going as expected at the particular moment.  Please don't be sad.  Remember all of us here love you.  And will be thinking of you now and on valentines day. 

Keep your faith Teresa, i just know that you can.  You are such a strong person and I know that you can make it through this with our help.

Luv and hugs,

Karen


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   Posted 2/12/2008 3:12 PM (GMT -7)   
Gettingby~
Wow this is where it gets hard for alot of people to understand the love and life that not many people ever experience.  I agree with you that Valentine's day is a day that has lost that reason it is celebrated.  As I said before, loving Valentines day was never about having someone in my life because most of them I was alone, it was just a day when I ensured people that love me were shown how loved they were.  I understand how commercial it is to some people but I guess I just looked at it as a day to stop the haste of a day to say I love you.  I still give Valentines to my children, it is a special day for me.
 
So I guess it is not the day that gets me down, it is the wonderful memories that I had hoped I would be sharing with my husband so many years later as we would have celebrated it, sitting old and gray on a porch swing remembering every emotion that we felt that night.
 
The thing is........it was always like Valentine's day with him.  That is why I am devasted on this day and every other day.  For the first time in my life I really feel I will never again see his face or kiss his lips.  Or see that funny face he makes when I wont stop looking at him.  
 
These last couple of days have been a nightmare and I long to see him just one more time.  I keep thinking to myself that he is over me, really over me and that I am just a memory in a book that has been closed and will be forgotten. I wonder if he ever thinks of me or comes by the house.  I dont think so, I still wait for him to knock on the door.
 
He and I were one of a kind, the kind that people would look at us and think we were celebrating something because of the way we were together.  GOD......I would give anything to have him in my life again and this time, I am healthy and I understand my past actions
 
 
I am so depressed and I sit here and look out the window.  All I do is cry. I know it is grieving but it hurts so bad.
 
I wish that I could wish him a happy valentines day but I know that he has another valentine now and it kills me to know that.
 
I would wish everyone a happy valentines day but I cant seem to find the strength to say it. 
 
I also saw a preview for a movie.  I have always said that signs are everywhere, good and bad.  Anyway, this movie has a couple songs  that will forever touch me in a way only he can know and still has alot of meaning to me and to him. Hopefully he will have noticed this  as  well. The movie is "step up 2"  I just thought it was really ironic that it comes out on a day when I really need my faith.  Could be silly to some but not to me.
 
Another lonely night, I pray every night for a miracle.
Teresa
 
 
Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results 
 
 " Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it."
English proverb
 
 If I could have one wish, it would just be this, I could take you to my soul and show you all the love there is."
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   Posted 2/12/2008 3:54 PM (GMT -7)   

Oh Teresa, I really feel for you.  I wish that you weren't feeling so bad right now.  But let those tears come, it is healthy to cry and normal to feel sad.  I pray that your dream will come true.  Life is funny, you never know what is around the corner.

Funny thing when you said that you would like to wish everybody a happy valentine's day but you can't .  Well do you realize when you said that, you just did? 

We are here for you so remember that.  Post whenever you feel the need.  We are here to listen, and we will help you get through the hard days.

You have experienced something that not everybody gets to have, cherrish the memories.

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Karen


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faithfully4you
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   Posted 2/12/2008 4:18 PM (GMT -7)   
Karen~
Thanks so much for your post.  How true it is.
 
I dont think anyone will ever understand what I had with this man and the way I still feel about him when I see him.  I get the butterflies in the stomach and all giddy...........................still after all this time, that is  miracle of God!  I have never felt the way I do when he is with me and happy. 
 
And you are right, not many people will ever experience what we had and in my mind will always be the reason he was brought into my life.  I love him so much I wish I could take the pain away but only being with him will do.
 
You know I guess it is this genuine love t hat I keep for this man that no other man has ever been in my life that I feel will some day some way bring this once in a lifetime love together again.
 
I cherish everything about our life, I was just an idiot that didnt know how to love him right.
Teresa
 
 
Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results 
 
 " Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it."
English proverb
 
 If I could have one wish, it would just be this, I could take you to my soul and show you all the love there is."
Chely Wright
 


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   Posted 2/12/2008 4:37 PM (GMT -7)   
Teresa,

Keep up your faith. you never know what the good Lord has in store for us. Just don't sell yourself short. You are a good person, that by the sound of it, made a mistake, we are only human. LIke I say Keep the Faith.

hugs,
Karen
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Mochiah
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   Posted 2/12/2008 9:11 PM (GMT -7)   
Teresa - I am willing to bet he thinks of you, too, around this time of year. He proposed, he has to have memory of that day.

I am curious, though, have you told him how you still feel about him? You don't say how long it has been since you parted ways, but time has a way of healing things and perhaps the two of you could sit down and talk now that the emotions of what happened aren't as raw. Hey, you never know until you try, and perhaps he has been wanting to talk with you, too, but hasn't had the nerve.
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   Posted 2/13/2008 11:37 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Moch~
The love of my life and I have actually known each other for 4 years.  There is a connection or as I call it "love spell" that will always burn between us.  There is so much that has happened between us in this time that it would take all day and make me cry so I will give you the abridged version.
 
We have been in out of each others lives.   We have seen really bad times and some times that I will never forget.  This time however there is someone else that he loves instead of me.  She is a good woman and better for him practically and obviously but in my heart of hearts no matter how good she is too him the love that I have for him will never be surpassed.  As for talking, yes many times and communicated in many ways.  The love that we still share is apparent to both of us yet I have done so much to hurt this beautiful man that he never wants to see me, he is getting on with his life and I pray every day for just one more chance.  There is so much I have learned and experienced in signs that I will never lose hope.  I want to see him so bad, I wish he would come to my house so I could just touch him one more time.
 
I am finally seeing that he will never come to me again no matter how much I earn for him.  I have given up looking out the window and looking for tire tracks in my drive way.  I really feel that I have lost him for good and it makes me so sad because there is so much I want to do with him. I am so sorry and he will never know just how much.
 
Our talks will be no  more because it is "the best" for both of us.  No I disagree, I love him too much to see him disappear from my life but I have no choice when it comes to his decisions.
 
I dont know what I will do without him.
 
I am going to go, I cant stop the tears and I am shaking so bad.  All I want is to see him, just see him.
Teresa
 
 
Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results 
 
 " Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it."
English proverb
 
 If I could have one wish, it would just be this, I could take you to my soul and show you all the love there is."
Chely Wright
 


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   Posted 2/13/2008 11:57 AM (GMT -7)   

Teresa,

There is a saying that 'time heals all wounds'.  Hopefully for you and him.  You can never tell what changes will happen in life.  I lost my husband 7 years ago to cancer.  I thought that I would never love again.  But here seven years later, I got married.  So there could be another just around the corner.  Or as I said about time, it my heal his wounds too.  So you never know.


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   Posted 2/14/2008 10:40 AM (GMT -7)   
sad  Hi everyone,
I am major depressed today because of the hole in my heart that is hurting today.  As I sit here I  wonder what the day will hold for me, I have already been in tears and havent eaten today.
 
Ok I said I wouldnt watch out the window but I will admit I am today.  I am hoping on this day of all days he stops even for a minute.  I actually went to a store, giant eagle last night to get some groceries, this was hard for me because I didnt know if I would see him or not.  I didnt.
 
I already gave my daughter and her boyfriend their gifts so I know that I wont see them today.  My son will be here tomorrow for the weekend.
 
I have been working on my spare room the past several days, it looks so pretty not to mention a memory that I like to be close to.
 
I wish you all a great day and make sure you tell everyone that you dont get a chance to see or talk to that much that you love them very much.
Teresa
 
 
Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results 
 
 " Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it."
English proverb
 
 If I could have one wish, it would just be this, I could take you to my soul and show you all the love there is."
Chely Wright
 


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   Posted 2/14/2008 3:36 PM (GMT -7)   
Just wanted to say that the day is almost gone and it has been another sad day.  Ny hopes and faith are being tested today.
 
I am so sad and my eyes are puffy and I can barely see to type.  Just didnt know what to do right now, just want a miracle.
 
Pray for me please I am having such negative thoughts.
Teresa
 
 
Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results 
 
 " Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it."
English proverb
 
 If I could have one wish, it would just be this, I could take you to my soul and show you all the love there is."
Chely Wright
 


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   Posted 2/14/2008 4:06 PM (GMT -7)   
Teresa
I am so sorry that you are hurting. I wish I could cast a magic spell and make you and your lost love together again,and the depression better.

It is hard when you love someone and you can't be with them.

Stay strong and remember we all care about you.
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faithfully4you
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   Posted 2/14/2008 5:49 PM (GMT -7)   

Thanks so much shy.  It is about 730pm and the evening is about done.  No visitors or happy valentines day for me.  I prayed all day for the chance to just see him today, thats all I want but I guess his this day like an anniversary is not worth anything.  I cant believe that I have sat here this evening waiting and watching for him, I mean literally  watched out the window for him.  I just cant believe that he doesnt want to at least see me, I realize that the emotions are high when he sees me but unlike him, I yearn to see him, I dont think anyone in this world loves someone like I do this man and how sorry I am truly sorry!!!!!!!!  I knew something was wrong between us the last time we were togethet  because I could not do for him what I used to do, all i want is him.

I dont know what else to say but I love someone that I will never get over him like he has gotten over me, I will live a million years and never stop loving him.  I am sorry I am rambling but I am so sad right now that I could die.  Im going to celebrate this day with my Meiers Pink catawba.

So much for love and faith, right?

I wish you guys could understand how I feel and how very sorry I am that we are not together.  To make things worse tonight, I found the rose petals and well....other things I had purchased for Valentines day.

I always leave my door open for him and the outside light on but maybe I should not anticipate him ever coming back, I cant even think about it right now.

 

I really need your prayers tonight because my miracle didnt happen, what else is new?



Teresa
 
 
Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results 
 
 " Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it."
English proverb
 
 If I could have one wish, it would just be this, I could take you to my soul and show you all the love there is."
Chely Wright
 

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   Posted 2/14/2008 6:39 PM (GMT -7)   
Faith - I will pray for you that you receive the strength to be able to get over him. It does sound as if he has moved on, and I know how badly that hurts. My first love ended up marrying someone else....and it ended up being on my birthday, that was a double whammy for me. He will always have a place in my heart, we have a daughter together, she is 22 now, and I have never spoken a bad word about him to her.

You do not mention how long ago it was you when you were last together. It is time to start making new memories, but you have to start in baby steps. Locking your door could be the first step, then turn out the light another time (or vise versa, turn out the light tonight then lock the door another time). My heart hurts for you because I know how awful you feel. But, perhaps when he sees that you are moving on, his heart will yearn for you.
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   Posted 2/15/2008 5:16 AM (GMT -7)   
Teresa

After all that I went through with my past, I did not think I would ever be able to be with someone,and actually fall in love with him.

But, I did and it came along when I least expected it..and it is funny because when I think of the other person,I realize that he does not even compare one bit to my b/f.

I thought I would never get over the past,but it happened slowly but surely.

I know you are hurting right now,but I really think you need to try to find a way to move on. To meet someone new..you can't do that if you are waiting around for him to stop by.

That is not fair to you...he has moved on so why should you have to stay hidden from the world. I know that you have alot to offer,and there is someone out there that would love to be with you..

Sometimes we just have to take a chance and see what happens.
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   Posted 2/15/2008 12:09 PM (GMT -7)   
Its funny because I look at what you write and agree 110%.  The only problem is this.......I have never yearned, ached, burned or felt this "passion" for another human being ever!!!  Yes I have had relationships as well but nothing has compared to what this man means to me mentally and physically.  It would be hiprocritical of me to say that I dont agree with what you are telling me but my heart and faith wont let me, IT JUST WONT LET ME!  I have even told him that I wish someone would find me so I could get over him as he has me. 
 
For the first time in my life I actually think that I will spend the rest of my days waiting for him, I wish I knew what it is that keeps me wanting him.  There are obvious things but to have the hold on my heart and soul as he does makes no sense to me.  Although he thinks that he has been just another man in my life, he could never be so wrong.  If that was true, he would be easy to let go off physically, emotionally and mentally as the others. I have had no trouble saying goodbye to these people and going on with my life, there is nothing that in my life that would make me miss any part of them.  I could not do this with him, ever.  I could never see him getting married, running into me at an event and feeling nothing or even a friendship, without him, I am lost.
 
I know that I should move on and start anew and that yes I am worth it but he is the greatest man I have ever known so those are going to be new HUGE shoes to fill, and actually I like my soft furry old shoes that comfort me always.
 
Thanks you guys for the words, you guys are a wonderful group.
 
Just pray for me and the miracle I really want.
Teresa
 
 
Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results 
 
 " Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it."
English proverb
 
 If I could have one wish, it would just be this, I could take you to my soul and show you all the love there is."
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   Posted 2/16/2008 5:09 AM (GMT -7)   

Its funny, I used to be really bothered about Valentines Day, having never been anything other than single, but now I just see it as another commercial holiday (As I think someone else mentioned). My theory is that if you cant be loving to your partner all year round, then whats the point of a 'holiday' where you put on false effort? Maybe im just skeptical

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   Posted 2/16/2008 4:16 PM (GMT -7)   

I agree with you Darren, some of these holidays are so commercialized.  It takes the simple pleasure right out of it.  And our expectations get raised to where it is a disappointment when it doesn't go as planned.

Faithful, I am going to go out on a limb here.  You say that this man gives you this wonderful feeling and passion that others can't imagine.  I say that this feeling and passion is you.  Not him.  You are the one experiencing this feeling and you are the one having the love.  I can say that he may have done things that help made you feel so good, but I am also saying that this is you.  I know that you love him and want to be with him, but I honestly feel that you can still feel that way by yourself.  You carry it within you.  I just want you to give yourself some credit and not depend on another person to feel good.  Because actually another person cannot cause you to feel any certain way, that comes from within you.  I think that you should have faith in yourself to be happy.  I know that you can do this, you have the faith and you have the strength.  It is a part of you.  So give yourself a chance to be happy. 

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   Posted 2/17/2008 6:24 AM (GMT -7)   
I agree with Karen, Teresa give yourself a chance...it is not fair that you are the one still hurting and hiding out.

You have so much to give,and there is someone out there that deserves it and would love you.

Don't hide out anymore
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   Posted 2/17/2008 10:22 AM (GMT -7)   
Thanks you guys,
I understand what you are saying believe me I really do but I have technically been without this man as a constant in my life for almost 2 years.  I have dated and I will tell you that I cannot get over him, not for a minute.  For the first time in my life I feel helpless and lost even when I have gone out.  I have recently become extremely untrusting of anyone and that has effected my relationships with anyone that has any part of my life.
 
 
As pathetic as it sounds, this man is my soulmate who I will wait for and pray that he comes back.  I have no desire to date or get serious with anyone.  I know that I should move on but there are reasons that noone will understand, that is something that makes me love him so.  I hope that he thinks about me alot as there is not a moment that goes by without a thought of him.
 
I have had so many things go wrong in my house and I yearn to call him to help me.  I about drowned yesterday when I fooled with the water hose in the basement!! Forgot to turn of the water and then couldnt find the valve.  Of course, I found it, I am still fighting it today.
 
Another thing that I need to do is get another car and I could really use his companionship.
 
Well just wanted to thank you guys for what you said and I guess I look at it like this, the love I have to this man will be forever and if God deems it necessary good or bad for us, it will happen without my control.
 
 
Teresa
 
Of all the moments in my life, you were always there somewhere. Once as a wish. Once as a blessing. And now as the greatest loss I'll ever experience."
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 " Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it."
English proverb
 
 If I could have one wish, it would just be this, I could take you to my soul and show you all the love there is."
Chely Wright
 


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   Posted 2/18/2008 5:32 AM (GMT -7)   
Teresa

I wish there was a magic pill,but there isn't ...and all we can do is try to be there for each other!
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   Posted 2/18/2008 2:19 PM (GMT -7)   
Thanks again Shy~
 
I am starting to think that you may be one of those guardian angels that always know what to say.  I am glad I found you.
 
My computer is not working right so I am having a horendous time trying to even sign on so if you dont see me for a day or two, dont worry, I am here at home fine, I hope though I can figure out what is going on, once again, dont know what I am doing so trial and error.
 
My son is going back to his dad's house this evening so I will be alone again.  He brings me so much joy that I almost dread being without him until his next weekend.  I have been working on my spare room, probably tonight after my son goes home. 
 
I am going to try to find a car this week, my car is just hanging on.  I have a book I have to make so I will probably devote my evenings to it.  Being alone everyday is really taking a toll on me, I am running out of things to do.
 
I guess I am doing ok, my depression seems to be hovering me every day with the grief.  I really dont know if I am ok, really trying to hold on to my faith.
Teresa
 
Of all the moments in my life, you were always there somewhere. Once as a wish. Once as a blessing. And now as the greatest loss I'll ever experience."
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Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results 
 
 " Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it."
English proverb
 
 If I could have one wish, it would just be this, I could take you to my soul and show you all the love there is."
Chely Wright
 


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   Posted 2/19/2008 4:45 PM (GMT -7)   
Babytiger~
Thanks so much for your thoughts, you seem to understand exactly what I mean.  It hurts so bad doesn"t it?  Some people dont understand that along with the strong possibility of never having someone you love in your life again, you also deal with the fact that you could have prevented what happened between the two of you.  It is sort of like a double-edged sword.  You can know in your heart that you are finally secure in the fact that you do deserve someone that  you love and it WILL BE THE TRUTH that finally brings it all together.
 
I went to see my doctor today and we talked about my depression and personality disorder. He stated that in his notes my counselor  had documented that she has a positive outlook on what my goals are and the intensity of my honor to fight all the negative attributes that my depression has darkened me with including and mostly the PD.  This made me feel as if finally someone could see that Im working on changing the things in my life for good.  And because her notes were so positive and that he felt that I was being honest in therapy, I dont have to go back until May!!!
 
He said keep up the good work and remember that I am grieving the events in my life.  Use it as a positive to push upward!!  Believe me, I started to cry because I have already come a long way from October.  For this I am so proud of myself.
Teresa
 
Of all the moments in my life, you were always there somewhere. Once as a wish. Once as a blessing. And now as the greatest loss I'll ever experience."
Unknown
 
 
Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results 
 
 " Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it."
English proverb
 
 If I could have one wish, it would just be this, I could take you to my soul and show you all the love there is."
Chely Wright
 


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   Posted 2/19/2008 5:14 PM (GMT -7)   
You SHOULD be proud of yourself. You have made so many wonderful changes. You have such a gift with your words, I really feel you should write about the journey you have taken. I love reading your posts because of the thought that you seem to put into each thing you say, you probably are able to do it so effortlessly, too.

I know that someday he is going to see the changes you have made...he has to because they are so profound! He probably needs time because he isn't believing it (your changes) himself right now and needs time to see if the changes stay or if it was a trick. If your love for one another is as profound as you make it sound, he will see.
Mochiah/a.k.a. Sue
cervical fusion 2006
L4-5 surgery with cages, plates, and screws in 2005
MEDS:  Fentanyl patch, Norco, Celexa, trazodone, and baclofen
 
To handle yourself, use your head...to handle others, use your heart
 
I'm going to smile like nothing is wrong, act like everything is perfect, and pretend its not hurting me.


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   Posted 2/19/2008 5:52 PM (GMT -7)   

Hi Teresa,

We are all so proud of you too.  You have been working so hard and it shows in your posts. 

Mochiah is right, you do have a gift of words.  You seem to make everything so interesting to read.  You are very wise and you have a subtle way of entering so much emotion into everything you write.

Keep up the wonderful work. 

luv and hugs,

Karen


fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, clinically depressed and allergies

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