Just wanted to check in and see how you are doing. I use to have a floral shop and plant nursery and I lost it because I got fibromyalgia. I went around feeling worthless for a long time. I was also suffering from depression. I am still dealing with both but not as bad as I was when I first got fibromyalgia. But I know how it is to feel completely worthless. In fact ironically I just got a summons for a creditcard debt from 5 years ago. I was totally shocked, they had left me alone for about a year now. Now of course they want twice as much as I owe. But I can't pay it and I am not going to worry about it. Sounds like I am using your post to vent, sorry. But even with this hanging over me I am not going to let it get me down. We have to grasp for whatever we can to make us feel worthwhile even if it is something simple and little as much as writing a shopping list. Try to have pride in everything you do, no matter how small it feels to you it is still worthwhile. And you are still worthwhile, we just have to slow down to the pace that our bodies will go. And it is kind of like starting over, but there are still so many wonderful things that we can enjoy. Just keep your chin up and be patient with yourself.